I apologize if the audio quality for Ren and Pierrot is shitty!! I wanted to isolate the voices from any background audio but it just kinda made it sound a bit odd even though it did remove the extra audio
I wanted to make a video with my headcanon voice for all my f/os, and I decided to add in Harley and Pierrot as well despite them having canon voices because why not
except when I went to record the two voicelines Pierrot has in TFC, I realized that I didn't really like it, so now I just feel like I'm betraying him in some way
I'm just wondering if I should "force" myself into liking his in-game voice or look into a headcanon voice that I think suits him more
I wanted to make a video with my headcanon voice for Ren and Sol, and I decided to add in Harley and Pierrot as well despite them having canon voices because why not
except when I went to record the two voicelines Pierrot has in TFC, I realized that I didn't really like it, so now I just feel like I'm betraying him in some way
I'm just wondering if I should "force" myself into liking his in-game voice or look into a headcanon voice that I think suits him more
I went to this lil outdoor art exhibition earlier today with the lads and I had lots of fun >_<
it luckily wasn't that warm when we went and we even managed to walk through the entire area twice before it started to rain like hell
I took like 25 pics in total but here's some of my favorite highlights :3
I went to this lil outdoor art exhibition earlier today with the lads and I had lots of fun >_<
it luckily wasn't that warm when we went and we even managed to walk through the entire area twice before it started to rain like hell
I took like 25 pics in total but here's some of my favorite highlights :3
(for those unaware, I live in Finland)
so Gato just posted this week's Saturday update casually announcing that she literally can't ship anything to the EU atm thanks to Canada Post cutting off 12 countries due to new import fees 😓
I'm REALLY hoping that this isn't a long-term thing and that everything will get sorted out bc I still have some official Ren items on back-burner and my ultimate plan is to buy the TPOF Ren body pillow cover at least before Christmas 🙏🏼
in the dream, I was in the perspective of an average cis + gay couple, pretty much all the things I want and desire from a relationship
except it's also everything I can't have
as much as I love my f/os, I hate that I can't have the same reciprocated physical affection and emotional connection as "normal" irl couples
no matter how much love I pour in, I'll never have the same thing reciprocated back and it'll always be one-sided in nature
"so why not be semificto and find a irl relationship as well?" I've already tried that and I came to the conclusion that most people are too much for me to deal with and that the perfect person for me doesn't exist irl
then of course there's all the "me being a pre-hrt transmasc guy and not a cis guy" stuff but I'm more focused on the relationship stuff here
why do my dreams have to hurt me, and why can't I be with my beloveds like irl couples?
in the dream, I was in the perspective of an average cis + gay couple, pretty much all the things I want and desire from a relationship
except it's also everything I can't have
as much as I love my f/os, I hate that I can't have the same reciprocated physical affection and emotional connection as "normal" irl couples
no matter how much love I pour in, I'll never have the same thing reciprocated back and it'll always be one-sided in nature
"so why not be semificto and find a irl relationship as well?" I've already tried that and I came to the conclusion that most people are too much for me to deal with and that the perfect person for me doesn't exist irl
then of course there's all the "me being a pre-hrt transmasc guy and not a cis guy" stuff but I'm more focused on the relationship stuff here
why do my dreams have to hurt me, and why can't I be with my beloveds like irl couples?
in the dream, I was in the perspective of an average cis + gay couple, pretty much all the things I want and desire from a relationship
except it's also everything I can't have
as much as I love my f/os, I hate that I can't have the same reciprocated physical affection and emotional connection as "normal" irl couples
no matter how much love I pour in, I'll never have the same thing reciprocated back and it'll always be one-sided in nature
"so why not be semificto and find a irl relationship as well?" I've already tried that and I came to the conclusion that most people are too much for me to deal with and that the perfect person for me doesn't exist irl
then of course there's all the "me being a pre-hrt transmasc guy and not a cis guy" stuff but I'm more focused on the relationship stuff here
why do my dreams have to hurt me, and why can't I be with my beloveds like irl couples?
last night I saw a Tumblr account of someone role-playing (?) as Ren but I'm pretty sure they never once stated anywhere that they were role-playing or anything so it really just felt like someone pretending to be him and it made me feel weird
then earlier today I saw a TFC reel on Instagram about "Pierrot's child after their mother's death" or something like that and it almost sent me into a spiral due to what I think is the thought of having a kid and gender dysphoria since I'm AFAB and HATE the idea of pregnancy (it feels like a reach considering the source of those thoughts but that's just how I feel)
MCs and Y/Ns will never be me and I'll never be them, and they won't ever "replace" me in my partners' eyes
I managed to set aside some money and placed an order for this lil guy >_<
it's just gonna take a while, but I've survived 7‐8 months for a pre-order for a plushie of one of my other f/os, so I think I'll be fine (hopefully...)
I can't wait to bring him home and finally have him in my arms!!! :D
idk if I've ever mentioned it before, but I'm really into collecting Pokémon cards!!! shiny cardboard go brrr /silly
I managed to find a nice card shop in Helsinki and they actually had the cards I "assigned" to my f/os!!
Ren: Thievul GG17/GG70 from Crown Zenith
Harley: Mantyke 189/182 from Paradox Rift
Pierrot: Dipplin 170/167 from Twilight Masquerade
Sol: Team Rocket's Spidops 187/182 from Destined Rivals
I also picked up a few other cards that I had on my wishlist, with the most notable being the Kieran SIR from Prismatic Evolutions!! I'm still on the hunt for my top chase card (N's Zoroark EX 286/217 from Ascended Heroes), so more card hunt trips might be upcoming soon :3
I'm really glad that my f/os also enjoy my hobbies and are willing to participate in them with me :D
idk if I've ever mentioned it before, but I'm really into collecting Pokémon cards!!! shiny cardboard go brrr /silly
I managed to find a nice card shop in Helsinki and they actually had the cards I "assigned" to my f/os!!
Ren: Thievul GG17/GG70 from Crown Zenith
Harley: Mantyke 189/182 from Paradox Rift
Pierrot: Dipplin 170/167 from Twilight Masquerade
Sol: Team Rocket's Spidops 187/182 from Destined Rivals
I also picked up a few other cards that I had on my wishlist, with the most notable being the Kieran SIR from Prismatic Evolutions!! I'm still on the hunt for my top chase card (N's Zoroark EX 286/217 from Ascended Heroes), so more card hunt trips might be upcoming soon :3
I'm really glad that my f/os also enjoy my hobbies and are willing to participate in them with me :D
I went into a rabbit hole of sorts regarding official merch of Pierrot until I remembered that I'm a broke ahh young adult and can't afford to buy that stuff from a chinese vendor that I have zero experience with
I usually don't experience fomo in the slightest but I think it's starting to crawl into my brain a bit :(
I'm sorta asking for advice (especially from those with f/os from indie sources like mine) and venting a bit since I feel like I'm falling into the "I need as much merch of my f/o as possible to show my love to them and others" even though I HATE having that mindset
I went into a rabbit hole of sorts regarding official merch of Pierrot until I remembered that I'm a broke ahh young adult and can't afford to buy that stuff from a chinese vendor that I have zero experience with
I usually don't experience fomo in the slightest but I think it's starting to crawl into my brain a bit :(
I'm sorta asking for advice (especially from those with f/os from indie sources like mine) and venting a bit since I feel like I'm falling into the "I need as much merch of my f/o as possible to show my love to them and others" even though I HATE having that mindset
so I've recently taken in a fourth f/o and I'm just wondering how to go about posting stuff of him because of the three claimed f/os per person rule
he's not on the claimlist and I'll immediately stop talking about him here if someone else does come along and wants to claim him
I just want to make sure I understand everything and won't break any rules or upset anyone
yeah, that's what I'm calling the polycule now (it's funny)
so for anyone who actually saw my last post on here, this is who I was talking about!
Solivan Brugmansia (or Sol for short) from The Kid At The Back!!! <3
I want to try a relationship with him again, especially now with the experience with fictosexuality that I didn't have back in February 2025 (if that makes any sense)
I already created a mii of him on Tomodachi Life and made a bracelet to match with my plushie and pin! (slides 7 and 8)