I need advice
Hey so idk what rlly to say so I’m just gonna try format this the best I can hopefully what I’m saying will make some sense.
I’m a 19 year old dude who just recently had my first serious break up with my partner of just over a year and I’m not sure if what’s happening it normal or if I’m handling it well.
Firstly when we spilt she literally cried and begged me to stay her friend. I explained that I thought I would find it weird and depressing seeing her as my friend and that I didn’t think I would be able to so instead I should just block her everywhere. This made her even more upset and so I caved and decided to stay friends.
Now this is where I think everything just went completely down hill firstly I think it’s important to let you know I am neurodivergent (ADHD and possible autism) I was diagnosed with ADHD when I was young however I lost my autism diagnosis due to having a shitty mom but anyway first of all she immediately started posting like thirst trap pictures and videos all over her TikTok which made me feel really shitty.
While all this was happening we were talking about getting back together further down the line which I didn’t mind too much what I didn’t know at the time was that the whole time she was with another man while talking about this with me. I had my suspicions she kept reposting like couples videos and videos about a boyfriend naively I thought they were about me. I found out she was lying when I saw she had made Reddit posts talking about how she had a new partner. This completely broke me and lead to us having a fight.
She said she was sorry for lying but she wasn’t sorry for being happy and that she’s allowed to date whoever she wants I said that I never said she couldn’t but the way she went about it and the things she did immediately after we spilt made me feel shitty and confused plus it looked like she didn’t respect me she never apologised.
Basically is this normal or what this is my first break up that’s serious so I didn’t know what to expect it feels like she’s fully moved on and I’m still where I started so I just don’t know what to do now