Gentle mystery
Perhaps no greater truth has been beheld by the mystics of the past then the nature of God and by extension your true nature and who you are as the witness of your expirience of life.
As someone who has been quiet passive most of my life, making my way towards enlightment seems to come naturally though I am often kicking and screaming most of the time. Apparently my soul is intent on showing me something.
This topic often sat on my mind during the most mundane daily tasks, as someone who grew up christian it felt quiet sacrilegious to describe myself being one with God. However as I have challenged my beliefs one at a time, this became more realistic and less scary but something shifted when I became a parent.
I saw something in my children I hadnt seen before, a gentle knowing, a gentle trusting in the unfolding of life, a resiliency i hadnt encountered in anyone and it become one of my greatest teachers. It was then that i realized something, children have no conception of God or self. They consider themselves one with, rather then one of. It is in that gentle mystery of self that I truly believe God rests.
You see insanity is doing the same thing over and over again trying to get a different result and I cant help but see my endless thinking of the divine and my own nature as perhaps of the most insideous forms of ego because it hi Jack's the journey of self with the promise of enlightenment or feeling free ironically though its in letting go that we arrive at truth. There is a reason for this, because i believe when the sea of infinite intelligence called God gave up everything to give birth to life and now exists only as spirit or energy, in letting go we are mimicking it. We(yes there is a we as relationship with self requires a form of distinction as oneness), continue its loving legacy until re-united with our source. So if God and self are one, this can only be realized when we let go of even this very concept.
There is nothing wrong with seeking truth but if it comes at the cost of your life it will require rebirth and silence and the mindset of a child to comprehend. Just like when we entered this relm.