How do I F26 know if I’m crazy or if I am just surrounded by toxic people
Let me just start by saying I do have a therapist I’ve been seeing for the past couple months. I have always felt crazy and like I spiral from growing up in a super traumatic family. Like really bad stuff. I’ve always lashed out at my mom and family, it’s like I can’t control my emotions or what I say. I try to give myself grace because of what they were putting me through but now I do it in relationships.
My last relationship was extremely abusive which I’m now learning I find myself with people like this because of my past. Currently, I’m with a guy who is always making me feel crazy. Once I feel like they don’t care about me or they’re pulling back I just start spiraling I can’t help it. Crying like my life is over and ruminating so bad. Tonight my current boyfriend M32 told me (while I’m spiraling from the hurtful things he’s saying to me) that I am effing crazy and need to be on meds. This was extremely hurtful but maybe he’s right? I always think I’m only like this because of the way people treat me, like they push me to be this person. However, it is me, I am that person and I should be able to regulate myself. I really want to get better and have healthy relationships. Does anyone feel like this?