I wore this outfit yesterday, but i literally hate how i look in it but i also kind of love it? i just wanna know other people’s opinion and thoughts on this outfit. does my stomach come out to much are my shoulders to wide?
back when i was around 4-5 years old my niece, L at the time was around 7-8 years old used to touch me inappropriately. it would happen at random times and i just let it happen because i didn’t know what to do, until one day we got caught and then our family talked about it and we didn’t see each other for a couple of days and then we all just kind of moved on from it. after i turned 9-10 i started to do the same what L did to me to my younger brother ( G) and then shortly stopped after realizing what i did and what she did to me was SA and a horrible experience that no one should ever have to go through. i have been feeling guilty all these years to my younger brother he was 4-5. earlier my older sister came up to me and ask if my niece L said anything crazy to me, and then she said when you guys used to be close did she ever tell you that \[Older brother (K)\] used to touch her. i told her no and she shortly ended the conversation but i can’t help but feel so bad , bad that she did it to me because K did it to her and i turned around and did it to G. and honestly thinking about it now, i don’t think L is lying. i remember when we first started doing it and while she was french frying me i asked her where did you learn about it and what are we doing. she told me i think along the lines of “i seen my parents do it before” and i think she added “someone did it to me before as well” but i honestly can’t remember. i feel so bad me and G are kind of close i mean he pisses me off so bad but i still play games with him every other day he isn’t angry at me or anything but i wasn’t with L either until i understood what she did to me now i carry it on my back and to my now relationships when i try to get sexual. what do i do? advice? do i just stay quiet and let everything unravel? is she lying just for attention ? i know that’s a really bad thing to say but if you knew how her dad ( my older brother ML) and his wife acts you wouldn’t believe her either i mean her life and her other siblings has been very difficult. switching from homes to homes, being homeless, not being able to take showers, or eat decent food , and your parents smoking weed 24/7 instead of getting a job to help support the family . i mean what if she got the story mixed up and it was someone else? idk what to do and i don’t know how to think anymore i feel like my mind is blown.
i have been feeling really self-conscious lately, i’m just here trying to see what everyone else thinks about me!