I feel like I have no self respect for myself, I often put myself down make a joke out of myself or often talk to people who have disrespected me before even though they are not family just friends, sometimes my own family members treat me as if I'm incapable of things, dumber, less intelligent, or just purely can't comprehend things.
I often also have hard times reacting in social situations which puts me in hard situations often leading to more disrespect, i also have mental illness that made me this way because it brought down my self esteem to a low and made me do /confess things i didn't want to, which lowered my respect even more, I'm in a position where I feel like I'm trapped constantly can't function cannot do anything and can't make correct decisions? Can please anyone help me or give me tips on how to change this? I can't let this continue anymore .