Curious if others relate to this anxiety response with psilocybin
I’ve got about 3 years of experience now with occasional microdosing and probably 5 full doses around 3.5-4g. Those bigger trips were honestly really powerful for me and I’ve never had what I’d consider a “bad trip.”
But I’m also generally an anxious person and definitely deal with health anxiety. What confuses me is that some of my strongest anxiety experiences have actually happened on lower doses.
About 6 months ago I took 1g in the mountains and it felt like my nervous system never fully calmed back down after. Another time on around the same amount or less, I had a full blown panic attack. I thought I’d experienced panic attacks before, but this was on another level. My heart rate hit 180 just sitting on the couch. It genuinely scared me.
What’s weird is I’ve also taken them again since then and had an amazing experience. No anxiety, no fear, just connection and peace. So I’m trying to understand why sometimes that “in between” range of taking enough to feel altered, but not enough to fully trip, seems to make me way more anxious than a real trip dose.
The specific feeling I’m wondering if other people relate to is this physical anxiety response: clammy hands, racing heart, shallow breathing, tingling, jittery feeling, hyper-awareness of my body, etc. Sometimes I genuinely can’t tell if I’m working myself up mentally and creating the physical symptoms, or if mushrooms can actually trigger that response in other people too.
I guess I’m also wondering if anyone has gotten past this? Like is there a way to stop fearing the physical sensations and get over that hump mentally? I hate that anxiety has become part of the equation for me because I’ve also had some really meaningful experiences with mushrooms.