u/Front_Scarcity_2875

so i’ve been dealing with my situationship for about 3 years now nothing official has came out of the situationship i feel like i need to say that for context later on. so basically me and my situationship started of as friends i wouldn’t say besties but we were close. so about a year into our friendship we decided we had feelings for each other blah blah blah. when i started dealing with him i thought it would be a little different bc we were friends WRONG our situationship has been rocky as fuck to where he getting caught talking to ther girls so ill do the same not necessarily out of spite but just in a moving on kinda way if he’s not taking me serious ill find someone who will if it makes any sense. i’ll be the first to admit this shit is toxic as fuck. back in november 2024 i ended up in a fucked up situation where i hooked up with my ex after me and my situationship not dealing with each other for about 5 months after getting tested i found out i got hsv2…when i told my situationship and we stopped talking for even longer i didn’t speak to him til christmas eve of last year. surprisingly he doesn’t care about my status considering the fact he’s negative. as of recently again with no title we moved in together and again TOXIC AS FUCK i’ve never been so angry in my life or resented a person so much before. obviously with us moving in together yk i went thru that phone and i fasho seen some stuff i didn’t want to so i hit this guy i make content with… big miss steak lol he seen and read ALL of our messages when i was making fun of him and i know it sounds fucked up but it came from an angry place and i’ve acknowledged it being wrong apologized and tried to make things right between us. he told me that he doesn’t want to be with me and that’s understandable due to me speaking down on him to another guy i was dealing with. but now we face the situation of him having herpes. it’s something i think about EVERYDAY i cry about the shit bc like even if you take antivirals use condoms ect it’s still scary bc you can possibly pass it and i don’t know if i did bc we don’t talk at all anymore like i feel like such a piece of shit bc i feel like i did him dirty and burned him at the same time and on top of that i kicked him out and we don’t talk. has anyone else been in a situation like this or have any type of advice thank you in advance