Family issues are killing me idk what to do
I’m a teen still in school, got 2 years left. I grew up watching my parents arguing all the time and I never really knew the reason why even till this day. It just constantly happens and happens out of nowhere. My parents haven’t been on good terms for almost 2 years, they don’t talk to each other. Last month they had an argument which affected me really badly, I was sick, and started getting a panic attack. This has never happened to me before I never reacted to their arguments. I was finally over it when out of nowhere it happened again this week. This time the fight was huge and I’m pretty sure it involved me. It got really bad (I’m not gonna mention what happened) but just know I do not feel safe in my own house. I’ve got no one to talk to, nowhere to go, nothing to do, I’m just a teen, I don’t earn money, I already have a lot of academic pressure, and my family isnt that financially stable. Im afraid everything I’ve been ignoring is finally getting to me mentally and physically, I don’t want it to affect my future, but idk what to do, I’m completely lost, not even my friends know about how I live and what I go through everyday. I wish I could do something for my mom, anything that would help. I had no one to talk to about this so I got Reddit and decided to dump but I know it’s not gonna help either way. How do I cope with is?