Is what I'm feeling love?
I don't know much about these things since I'm no expert. I can only describe my symptoms:
It’s been eight years and I still miss him. We never actually dated, I’m not gay, I like women but something different happened with that friend from our group. Maybe it was just teenage hormones (I was 13 or 14 at the time). I just remember that whenever we looked at each other, I felt something, and when we’d tease each other and I touched him, my mind would go blank, I’d lose my breath, and my heart would race.
In the end, due to pressure from the group, we stopped speaking. I heard he cried, though I don't know if it was over me or someone else. Time passed and I thought I’d forgotten him, as if my conscious mind had suppressed the memory into my subconscious but just a few months ago, he came back to mind, and now I feel like I’m dying. What happened? How do I get rid of this feeling?