u/FuckWereDoomed

Now I have super double eyeball ache pain uugghahhh
Oowwwwwww. I see what they are talking about. I just end up with the aftermath of my emotions.

One day, years from now, I think I’ll look back on my life and realize there were only a handful of moments that truly changed me.

Meeting you will be one of them.

Not because you saved me.
Not because you fixed anything.

But because you walked into my life and somehow made me feel real again.

You taught me that the greatest feeling in the world isn’t being admired.

It’s being understood.

It’s having someone look past the smile you’ve practiced, past the walls you’ve built, past the version of yourself you show everyone else

and still choose to stay.

You taught me love isn’t a feeling that arrives all at once.
It’s the quiet certainty that life feels better simply because you’re in it.

Some people might notice what you do.
Very few notice what you carry.

I did.

I saw the battles you never talk about.
The strength you use so often that you forget it’s strength.
The way you keep giving. And giving……..And giving, pieces of yourself to people who don’t know their value.

And sometimes I think about how you don’t know what you meant to me.

Because there was a version of me that existed before you.
And without you it’s tearing me apart. I should have been there!

You changed the way I see the world without ever asking to. No mirrors here anymore but you changed the way I see myself.

You made ordinary days feel important.
You gave memories a heartbeat. You gave me so many wonderful memories.

You became the voice I wanted to hear when something good happened and the hand I reached for when it didn’t.

I always thought heartbreak would be missing the big things.

Instead, it’s missing the moments nobody else would notice.

The message I’d instinctively reach for.
The laugh I knew by heart.
The feeling that no matter how hard the day was, you were somewhere in it….

I didn’t realize those moments were becoming part of me until it was too late.

One day, whether we’re together for fifty years or whether life takes us places neither of us expected, nobody will ever be able to erase what you meant to me.

If I could I’d build I Time Machine so I could stop myself. Not before the beginning, my favorite movie, but before the end. And do everything that you deserved. Because you were right. It’s still just you.

Even after all this time. Yours was more

My biggest regret will forever be she. For I couldn’t do what she did for me.

A sailor in a sinking ship, why did I run? Honey dip

P.s. I’m not well and the urge is coming back. Do me a favor and make sure I’m still blocked baby. I can’t help myself.
Gotta go. Making myself sick.
Forehead kiss