help, Pls
IF U HAVE ANY QUESTIONS OR OPINIONS OR STORIES I COULD RELATE TO PLS COMMENT SO I CAN TRY MATCH HOW IM FEELING
im 27, non binary, i have never really deep dived ftm stuff, I know for Sure im not a girl, and the term and feminine references actually make me cringe and physical revolse. I have always been Very tomboy, and everytime ive had to wear dresses or skirts, make-up or anything i would flip out. as an adult make ups fine but in the way letting my girlfriends and friends do it, but ill never leave the house.
as a kid I was always the brother, boyfriend, husband or whatever male figure in make believe games in primary school, and same as video games, or if we chose to be a character mine would be male. even to this day I choose male characters in video games, i dont recall ever choosing a girl.
fitness and working out, I will watch workout videos and stuff if it comes to mind, but I forever catch myself watching specifically males, or trying to find non binary workout. ive also always wanted to be muscular but havent been able to achieve it.
with i guess my body. I always wear very baggy clothes, always hiding my body, but never intentionally but more because I feel more right in a masculine presenting outfit. although if I wear a shirt I can see my chest i rlly dont like it most of the time, and it takes a lot for me to wear it. and sometimes if my partner wants me to wear a skirt or tight shirt going out some nights, and I dont want to i get really upset and offended cause im uncomfortable with the thought. I really do think id be more comfortable in a masculine body? but im really small so I dont think I would get surgery, but it has been a thought and a plan to not have nappies and im not sure if that plays into it
with s3* stuff, I rlly do with i had, those parts. if I may be internet friendly, I wizh i could jork it, and i have always, still do, have as a kid pretended to do said motion, either just cause im envious or cause i feel like i rlly want it and then im upset? especially when i was younger.
I have definitely also experimented with packing when I was younger, drawing facial hair, turning myself into a boy for fun etc.
idk theres more probably, if you have questions or anything i can relate to Please comment cause im rlly tryna figure this out.