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Once in my life, I became aware of my own awareness, and it was one of the most profound experiences I've ever had.

I was angry on the outside, but deep inside I realized there was a quiet presence simply observing. It was almost as if something within me was saying, "You're acting this anger out. Look—beneath it, you're actually calm."

I don't experience this every time I'm angry, but after that moment I understood, at least a little, what many saints and spiritual teachers mean when they talk about the witness or the observer.

It also made me wonder whether this is something that can even be practiced. It doesn't feel like something I can force. It seems more like thoughts and emotions arise naturally, while awareness itself is separate and simply notices them.

Has anyone else experienced something like this? Do you think this witnessing awareness can be cultivated through practice, or does it just happen on its own?

I've noticed something interesting about my chanting practice.

These days, I can chant while my thoughts are running in parallel. For example, when I'm riding my bike, the chanting continues in the background while I'm still aware of everything around me. It usually stops when I'm driving a car or when I'm focused on work in the office, which makes sense because those require more attention.

Sometimes I even forget I'm chanting, but after a while my mind automatically reminds me to start again. It has become such a natural habit.

The one thing I haven't been able to experience is chanting with a completely silent mind. Thoughts are always there in the background. Is it actually possible to reach a state where you're only chanting and there are no thoughts at all?

I can sit and chant for hours, but my mind never seems to become completely still.

Has anyone else experienced this? If so, what helped you go deeper in your practice?

When I first started chanting and walking a spiritual path, the first thing that happened was that I drifted away from my friends. I only had five close friends, and now I barely meet or even talk to them. Whatever the reasons were, it just happened.

I also lost the urge to eat non-veg. Now I feel completely balanced about it—if I eat it, fine; if I don't, that's fine too. The craving is simply gone.

The things I still struggle with are anger, restlessness, and fear about stability. I think a lot of it comes from having to live in the world—you have to deal with people, earn a living, and sometimes be a little selfish just to survive.

Sometimes I wonder if leaving everything behind would make it easier to find what I'm searching for. But then I also feel there would just be different challenges. Maybe the struggle doesn't disappear—it just changes.

In the end, I've come to feel that it's best to let life unfold the way it's meant to. If something profound is meant to happen, it will happen in its own time.

Feeling blessed. 🙏

Lately, I've been getting this strange feeling like tiny water droplets are falling on my skin. It makes me tingle for a second, but when I check, there's no water or anything around me. Has anyone else experienced something like this? Any idea what it could be?

Lately, I've been getting this strange feeling like tiny water droplets are falling on my skin. It makes me tingle for a second, but when I check, there's no water or anything around me.

Has anyone else experienced something like this? Any idea what it could be?

I’m currently staying at a highly sacred temple/spiritual place where I've spent the last day doing intense chanting. Last night, I had a short but incredibly vivid dream.

In the dream, I realized I had lost all of my teeth. But instead of panicking (which I know is the usual reaction to teeth-falling-out dreams), I vividly remember feeling totally happy, cheerful, and smiling. I even remember thinking to myself in the dream, "Well, you can't eat everything now!" and laughing it off.

I know teeth dreams usually symbolize anxiety or loss of control, but my emotional state in the dream was pure joy and lightness. Given that I’m in a deeply spiritual environment right now chanting, what do you think this means? Has anyone else experienced a positive tooth-loss dream?

Would love to hear your interpretations!

How does one find a Guru? It is often said that when a person becomes ready or capable, the Guru appears and guides them. My question is: how does one become capable? There seems to be no clearly defined path for it.

Sometimes I feel that finding a Guru is a matter of destiny, and that one must have accumulated the right karma to receive such guidance. If that is true, then why not begin preparing now, even if the Guru is not found in this lifetime? Perhaps the effort we make today will help us find a Guru in a future life.

At least this intention keeps us moving in that direction and keeps the search alive within us.

What are your thoughts on this?

There was a time when I was deeply immersed in Krishna Bhakti. My only aspiration was moksha. I was not seeking money, power, fame, or any worldly achievement. Liberation and union with the Divine were the only goals in my heart.

However, from January to April, I went through a phase where I was unable to do my regular japa or meditation. My spiritual practices became irregular, and I felt disconnected from the inner state I once cherished.

Then I visited Mahakaleshwar in Ujjain. Something changed within me during that journey. Along with Mahakal, I also visited the sacred temples of Harsiddhi Mata and Gadkalika Mata. A deep curiosity and attraction toward the Divine Mother began to arise naturally in my heart.

One day, I silently asked the Mother, "What should I bring for You?" The very next night, I had a dream in which I clearly saw a particular saree. The following day, when I went to the temple, I found the exact same saree being sold by the vendors outside. I purchased it and offered it to the Mother with devotion. For me, it felt like a personal response to my prayer.

After that experience, I felt a strong inner calling to begin chanting the Mother's mantra, and I started doing japa dedicated to Her. The connection felt natural and effortless, as if She herself was guiding me toward this path.

Lately, I have been reflecting on a deeper question. Before seeking moksha, perhaps one should first understand what spiritual realization actually feels like. What is enlightenment? What is the experience of receiving the direct darshan of a deity? How do some realized beings seem to understand another person's life or future simply through a conversation? What does it mean to live in the constant presence of our beloved Krishna or the Divine Mother?

I feel that these questions are not born out of curiosity alone, but from a sincere longing to understand the nature of divine reality. Moksha remains the ultimate goal, but perhaps the journey also involves discovering the living presence of God, experiencing divine grace, and understanding the transformative power of devotion.

My experiences have taught me that the Divine can guide us in unexpected ways. Sometimes Krishna leads us through love and surrender; sometimes the Mother draws us through Her compassion and mysterious signs. Ultimately, all paths lead toward the same Truth. Whether through Krishna, Shiva, or the Divine Mother, the destination remains union with the Supreme.

But this path is long way, not sure you will achieve it in one life ? What do you all think?

I feel like I'm caught between two lives. One is the everyday life where I work, earn money, and take care of my family. The other is a spiritual life, where I meditate and seek inner peace and blessings.

Trying to balance both can feel frustrating. Sometimes I wonder why we are made this way. It feels so difficult to fully commit to both paths at the same time. If I focus on one, I feel like I'm neglecting the other.

I'm not sure what state of mind I'm in right now, but I often feel torn between my responsibilities and my spiritual aspirations.