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When I was younger I struggled pretty heavily with Bulimia and it landed me in residential programs for a year and a half. I got better and thought I had recovered. Fast forward a few years, I started to struggle pretty heavily with OCD and started to binge and eventually became pretty obese. Eventually I got fed up and started purging again a few times a week. I don’t purge every single day. I’d say about 3-5 times a week. I read somewhere that you have to purge every single day to be bulimic.I’ve also started to not eat between the hours of 9am and 9pm. After that I usually binge. I don’t know why it’s so hard for me to admit I might be struggling again. I’m not really honest with my partner or my therapist. I don’t want this to be an issue again. I’ve got this thought in my head that you can’t be obese with an eating disorder and I feel like that’s what’s holding me back.

THIS POST MIGHT BE TRIGGERING Well I will add I struggled pretty heavily with an eating disorder when I was 13-16 years old. I spent over a year and a half in residential programs for my bulimia. When I got out of my program I was better and didn’t seem to struggle anymore. A few years ago I started to gain weight from bingeing without the purging and I’m now pretty obese. I did fall back into purging about 2 years ago but only a few times a week. I think I read it has to be once a week to fall into the bulimia category. Recently my family has been making a lot of comments about my lack of weight loss and what I eat. Now I feel like I eat breakfast around 8am and go without food until I eat dinner around 9-10pm. I’ve lost my energy, I feel like I’m going to pass out during the day. I don’t think that’s anorexia since I do eat but I guess deep down I’m just trying to punish myself. Does it sound like I have an eating disorder? I don’t want to have one and I think I’m doing everything I can to convince myself o don’t have one.