The Yearning
I want the world to be more kind, to meet me as I met it for so long. I want to be able to move and experience it. To explore and meet new people. To “live, laugh, love” I'm tired of wealth and power laying down obstacles. I'm tired of working for people who treat me like an object. I'm tired of being met with suspicion and hate first. I'm tired of defending my right to exist like it's negotiable. I want to see new things, people, and places. I don't want to be stuck in one place for years of my life treated like a tool with never ending energy. I want to see what life is, what it means, what people have made- with my own eyes, not trapped behind a screen or banished to the wilderness for refusing tooldom. I want life to mean something more than productivity. I want death to mean more than escaping life. I want to be free and to laugh everyday. Life has become a subscription model that keeps getting more expensive and demanding. This is not the meaning of life, but the meaning of death in life. To rip the joy from it and paywall it. And they say this is narcissistic, to want to live and be free. The old slave masters called it laziness, now they say quiet quitting, and older still called the yearning to be free of chains being idle, yet expected men to serve their idles. A world of greed and ego. To refuse to waste a life indebted to a system designed to commodify it. And it hurts, so so very bad to be stuck navigating a world seemingly meant to limit and take. What life is this to be expected to be a tool for power. To expect the soul of a man to die or be reshaped into a heartless thing. It's a rigged game imo. I won't play. But I'll try to change the board if I must, but I'm unsure any could do it alone, or what that would look like. I just know this ain't it.