How do i get over this man?
I think i’ve always liked my coworker or always wanted to be closer with him but back then i felt it was never possible but now that i’m older and am more involved with my coworkers we got closer, i’ve liked him deeply for at least 7 months and for a short while i was told he liked me back but wasn’t ready for a relationship. i respect that and didnt mind being friends / friends with benefits.
What the real problem with him is that ever since these 2 new coworkers joined the group he tends to not look once at me or talk to me at all. Like i’m invisible.
It’s just that we have this history where we texted every day for 2 months and since we work in different areas, on our nights out we’d have maybe once every fortnight or month it’d be the one time i could actually talk to him but every time i’m let down then the next day at work we’d have small exchanges like i exist again, only really when i’m the last option and everyone else isnt working.
All i am is hurt by him but i can’t seem to get over him. I can’t quit, i just don’t know what to do.
This is the most i’ve ever crushed on someone before coming from someone who’s had many crushes and has never had a boyfriend or really anything romantic with a man ever, yes i am only 19 but with the way my head is, finding a boyfriend feels impossible and since he was the closest thing to it, i think that’s why i’m so attached.
The funny thing is is that the most we’ve ever done is hold hands drunk and maybe hugged once.
I’m actually so stupid, why am i like this?