i really don't know how to handle this
my name is aaaa and i am 21 years old man
i were suffering from the mental illlness(multi personality disorder)
i have three personlity within myself
but i can handle them manually
now i am going to introduce them
1.ben
2.max
3.normally me
for each of them have each tasks example ben is used for my acedemic and max is used for my happiness and last me who is used to take decisions
how its all began
i was normal child until 3th standard
i was studing at private school
i were dull student and my marks were low and even i couldn't read long words in tamil and english
i passed my quarterly and half yearly exam at boarder pass mark.
but everything changed when my maths mam started to encourage me by comptete with students who were toppers at our class (our standard has four classes from A TO D,students are filled in the classes according to their previous acedemic mark 2nd standard annual exam mark ascending order
so our class is last class for dull students )
with my ego and competative behaviour i scored high marks in maths and first mark in my class d but i scored low marks in tamil,english,science,social
but the taste of being first and taking high marks satisfy my ego so i started to work hard to be first rank
at my 4th,5th,6th,7th,8th standard
i were so competative and egoistic to score marks at these standard
i scored mark by 85 to 90 percentage of hard work and 15 to 10 percentage of cheating in exam
but at my 9th standard,i faced rejection and betrayal of friends for scoring marks by cheating
so i started to stop my cheating activities in the exam completely at end of 9th standard
WHERE MY PERSONALITY DISORDER TOOK ME:
during my 10th,11th and 12th i were sub consciously using my personalities without recognising which leads me to be alone and ignored by other
supernatural vision which were seen by me while i were unconscious
i could see two persons infront of me including them and me the total was 3
we all talked together every time even while sleeping and in my dreams
i felt something which can't be described in the words which give me a path to connect them visually
now i would my powers of my personality
1.ben who was very intelligent version of me and he could read and learn anything within short period example if i want to learn new things ,i would swap my position with him so i could read everything fast and without wasting the time
calculate everything,predict future accurately without flaws,withstand enormous pain ,
but he will come only at critical situation
last time i experienced him at my 12th board exam and state level sports competation
2.max-created for my happiness
because of him i can't cry anymore
i smile at critical and emotional situation because of him ,my family hated me
i can't express other emotions except smile
my classmates and teachers made fun of me infront of stage and auditorium
- normally me
i am the one who controls these two persons
i acted as switch who come to take my body as per the need i faced
example: if i felt bored,sad,happy,tension,alone,etc.. ,i switch to max and started to be happy without a reason and do anything which makes me happy and fun
if i faced acedemic struggle like exam ,i would switch to ben who took care of me and read everything in a short period example in my 12th standard board exam
i wasted my study leave days unconsciously switch with max who wasted my time by watching,playing games and movies
after the mess ,we have 17 hours only to board exams .so i switch to ben who took care of me and give knowlegde to face the exam with his help my cleared my 12th board by 96 percentage
this things happened to me for every exams
after my 12th standard board exam , i started to realise that intense presence of them increasing every day and today they told me to share this to everybody i really don't the reason why they said me to share this information with you
my goal in my life to be Ben forever and invent new things and machines
my aim is to be a scitentist like sir Abdul kalam
now i am studing final year in b.e. at top tier college
my friends and my family don't know about this