u/Gaius_Caligula33

What are the side effects and how suddenly can previous mental illness symptoms come back? Thx u

Hey long time lurker first time poster here lol. So just fyi I have really bad OCD as well as u specified psychotic disorder (possibly bipolar? Idk) so please don’t give me any reassurance in the sense of “yes these actually are/ aren’t real hallucinations” or “these don’t actually count as psychosis” because I’m actually diagnosed and I’m not looking for reassurance I’m simply looking to know if anyone else relates to this odd very specific experience of mine. So for context I’ve had both visual auditory and another type of “hallucination” or whatever you want to call it that I call the “thought like voices” that I used to experience a lot l. I’m bringing this up because I haven’t had these for 6 year since my last mental breakdown but recently can feel them creeping into the edges of my mind again wanting to get out? Idk a better way of describing it sorry. My visual ones have just been of wierd vortex like shapes & colors almost like looking
Through a kaleidoscope. When I get the internal voices I can physically feel the static in my head like waves or sand pouring through my brain it feels wierd. So I’ll explain by saying the voices some of the time are only internal sometimes external. The internal ones sound like I’m reading someone else’s thoughts in my head or like radio static being transferred into my mind. There like whispers that I hear internally. I have ocd so sometimes I literally hear my intrusive thoughts like people are speaking to me, or having whispered conversations with each other. The main voice I call the “other me” or OM because she’s like a darker version of myself that tells me to do bad things to myself & others. I’ve also heard the voice of my future self and angels and God as well (yes I’m better now I know I was going crazy lol) anyway thx if you made it this far and just want to know if anyone else has had similar experiences?