u/GalacticDrk

i read things about people having crippling dysphoria and i think i don't because i am able to push it away not think about it and do what i need to do for that day but also i am worried that it won't work out i no i haven't even started hrt but i am afraid i will never pass that i will just end up being an ugly trans woman that looks like the crude transphobic drawings transphobes make and that i will never be happy with how i look

and i find that a lot of my time at home i just want to lay down and not get up

Because being in bed makes me feel just a little bit better

But then i just feel like I wasted the day away doing nothing I enjoy

And time slips away

Also euphoria is so good a feeling that feels like its not allowed to be real

So I am going to be moving to Oregon soon tobe in a place where away from my anti-lgbtqia+ parents so i can feel safe to start socially and medically transitioning, and I am wondering what is the best way to start hrt, I ideally want to have it covered by insurance but i know insurance from a job dosn't normally start for the first few months, so should I do DIY till then or from an informed consent clinic, like which path would be cheeper till i can hopfully get it covered by insurance