u/GearAppropriate4460

my sister had a bad shift at work last night, and i felt guilty about it because i was supposed to be my shift but we swapped. my brain instantly went to “what did i do wrong today that caused this to happen” and decided that i didn’t count enough.
now im like what the heck?? this disease is crazy, making me act like im sidney crosby or something. the worst part is i know im still going to count today. like i can acknowledge that this is crazy, but i still can’t stop myself from doing it.

i’ve worked in food/customer service at this one place for almost two years now and have never had any very ocd related problems, besides washing my hands too often and occasionally hard core cleaning the shop. recently i’ve been on a spiral, and now every time i give a customer their food i think “you probably are poisoning them and they’ll die” or “this has an allergy they didn’t tell you about and they’ll sue the company and it’s your fault” or “you have hantavirus and you’re killing them all” etc etc. it’s exhausting. by the end of my shift i was just so mentally tired.

on top of this i’ve always loved talking to the kid customers that come in. i’m a teenager so i never thought it would be weird until this spiral. now im worrying that the parents will think im flirting/being inappropriate to their kids. i don’t want to be doing that, but what if they think i am?? i could go to jail

why won’t my brain just shut up??

i don’t know what to do or how to stop it. i’m getting more and more compulsions and more and more obsessive thoughts. i am fully aware it’s getting worse and yet i feel like a bystander just watching it happen. i try to talk to my family about it and they just don’t understand, and try telling me it’s normal things to worry about which just makes it worse. the past year ish that i’ve had ocd i spent maybe 1-2 hours with compulsions and/or thoughts, but these past few days it’s been well over 8 hours, even keeping me from sleeping and eating. but also maybe im making myself worse, and it’s my fault. i don’t know what i can even do if that’s the case

a few years ago i had really bad body dysmorphia which led me to some messed up routines. my whole thing then was that i didn’t want to tell anybody because i didn’t want help. i didn’t want to stop, i wanted to keep doing what i was doing.

similarly, right now, i know that i should get help with my ocd, but i don’t really want it. i feel like my ocd is keeping me safe and i don’t want to live without the feeling of my routines as a result of my themes. i also will look on other people’s experiences and think, “well mine isn’t that bad, so i don’t need help” which sounds so mean. i just don’t want to be fixed because i think it’s beneficial to me. i know thats messed up but i don’t know what else to do

not asking for diagnosis!!
is hypochondria common in people with ocd? i’ve had pretty bad contamination ocd for a long time now but recently it’s been spreading to me worrying about my health. i’m very worried im going to have a spinal cord problem and get paralyzed (i have a lot of back pain due to scoliosis), and am also worried about getting sick, especially with this hantavirus stuff. i can’t stop thinking about it and it’s making me so anxious.
i also don’t usually like to take medication because i worry that, if something bad happens, i wont know right away (unrealistic i know, try telling my brain that), but recently i keep feeling the need to take medicine to keep away sickness and prevent things. are these things normal with contamination ocd? or should i look into it more with professionals?

i’m a teenager i have been having back pain on and for about a year now. these past few months it’s gotten really bad and consistant, with tingling and spasms. i went to the doctor today with a fever but no sickness symptoms but lots of back pain. i have mild scoliosis, but it hurts so bad. also in much more parts of my back then just the part with the curve. got prescribed muscle relaxants, but i don’t know if there’s something that they’re missing or i’m overreacting in regards to my pain and it’s normal for mild?

im a teenager with ocd, and about a year ago i started having back pain. my shoulders are a little crooked so my mom just assumed it was minor scoliosis and moved on (no diagnosis). these past few months its been getting worse, to the point where i can barely do anything without back tingling, pain, or spasms. im in constant fear that im going to be paralyzed and my parents aren’t scheduling any appointments. my spiral has gotten so bad that every time i go to sleep i wonder if this will be the last time that i do (i don’t want to die but am worried my back would kill me). i don’t know how to convince them to at least take me and see if there’s anything wrong. not asking for diagnosis, just need advice

i’m a teenager with ocd, and my family always acts like i’m crazy. it’s so frustrating because it’s making me start to wonder if i’m making it up. when i was younger i would joke about having ocd cause i’ve always been a “perfectionist“, and now i can’t help thinking if im acting like i have ocd for attention. i do this with all sorts of things too, like wondering if i’m making myself act like im like this but it’s all a facade. not sure if that makes any sense