I spent most of last spring/summer partying my ass off and fell into a 1-2gram x3 per week coke habit. Along with other shit, 2CB, ecstasy, pharmaceuticals you name it. Prior to this I had slowed down to focus on my career and trying to "settle down and grow up". But it was game over soon as I reached a career milestone and had of disposable income to burn.
When I did the "adult" career driven guy thing, most of my relationships would fizzle out after a few weeks or months. But once I gave into my fuckhead urges and started getting into the drugs again and going to sketchy techno events multiple times a week. The version of myself I became had waaay more options. Even normal and otherwise responsible women got sucked into that chaotic atmospher. Apart from the causual one thing, two of the girls I slept with a few times and one I was basically seeing on a regular basis all had boyfriends. I chalked it up the excitement of them being introduced new experiences and places.
And just a disclaimer, I'm not talking sketchy drug addict shit where people's lives fall apart. I'd described more as high functioning usage which occasionally spiral into 2-3 day benders.
It hasn't made me jaded about women or any of that dumb Andrew Tate shit. But it has made me pause and rexamine why the chaotic, dysfunctional and fucked up version of myself that the drugs and partying create is so much more successful women. And whether a version of me will one day come along and nuke my future relationship.
Jesus christ, I appreciate the concern but can people chill out with the Nancy Reagan "Just say No to drugs" shit. I said LAST summer in reference to a previous time. I'm not railing line of charlie on a regular basis lol