u/General-Fix979

Edit she made 3 diffrent accounts lol

Tommorow Im gonna change my life Im 15m two days ago I was going to hang my self from a ceiling fan but I met somebody online who had issues two we made a deal to help each other so tommorow Im finna pick up some new fits similar to wardens elite skin that’s the look cause I want to aperee more well alive also Im actually gonna let my curly hair be kinda curly cause normally I have it pulled back cause it’s long also haircut and I’m gonna start to run and work out to put on some weight cause I’m skinny and no more weed or alchohol maybe edit from 10 secs ago Goal get a girlfriend and the person I met online probably won’t work out cause I love pretty easy but they ain’t finna see this and they prob ain’t fina be down with it eaither ghis is my year

How do I and can I add pictures cause I was going to post but I don’t know how to add images and it won’t make sense without it

Does anyone else not resive any attention from the opposite gender

( edit I made a mistake on the title I meant attraction not attention but still gets the point across )

I find it hard to revive attraction from people my age . For reference Im 15 m (straight) to get across my point when I was 13 or 14 I really liked this girl let’s Call her Ava t now I really liked Ava she was attractive to me and had a great personality and we could talk almost endlessly and I felt like it bloom in my emotions I really liked her but then she went to Montana for the summer to visit family so I thought about her and I even changed uo my look a bit I did my hair a bit nicer and different started dressing decent but when school started she was head over heals for one of my freinds for 2 years and he didn’t even like her and it hurt . Then one day I heard a couple girls talking with her and they said who do you like to her and she said my Freind and one of them said my name and she said ew which really hurt but previsoisly a girl came up to me with her freinds I was just chilling and they said that one of them liked me and I knew they were joke ing so I walked away and they laughed I hate my face and my body everyone I ever liked has liked someone else . Girls I have been sat next to look at me with disgust . Im not a acward guy Im actually kinda funny so Im told I have many freinds all of different taste and background . I kinda get overshadowed by them cause they’re all like 8s but ya know. The original girl won’t even respond to my messages anymore we’re not close anymore even though I still live at the same street . I just want to be loved and not like Platonically or family I mean romantically I want to feel wanted and cherished and at least attractive to someone

( edit I made a mistake on the title I meant attraction not attention but still gets the point across )

I find it hard to revive attraction from people my age . For reference Im 15 m (straight) to get across my point when I was 13 or 14 I really liked this girl let’s Call her Ava t now I really liked Ava she was attractive to me and had a great personality and we could talk almost endlessly and I felt like it bloom in my emotions I really liked her but then she went to Montana for the summer to visit family so I thought about her and I even changed uo my look a bit I did my hair a bit nicer and different started dressing decent but when school started she was head over heals for one of my freinds for 2 years and he didn’t even like her and it hurt . Then one day I heard a couple girls talking with her and they said who do you like to her and she said my Freind and one of them said my name and she said ew which really hurt but previsoisly a girl came up to me with her freinds I was just chilling and they said that one of them liked me and I knew they were joke ing so I walked away and they laughed I hate my face and my body everyone I ever liked has liked someone else . Girls I have been sat next to look at me with disgust . Im not a acward guy Im actually kinda funny so Im told I have many freinds all of different taste and background . I kinda get overshadowed by them cause they’re all like 8s but ya know. The original girl won’t even respond to my messages anymore we’re not close anymore even though I still live at the same street . I just want to be loved and not like Platonically or family I mean romantically I want to feel wanted and cherished and at least attractive to someone

Teenager (15) m I think that I am hideous and I genuinely despise the way I look I don’t get attention from girls almost all of my freinds are like 7s and 9s and the one time I had a girlfriend I felt obsolete compared to her and was embarrassed to be seen I wear baggy pants and thick hoodies I hate myself body and my face . I have never had a girlfriend like me and the one I did I broke up with cause of my self image and also later I found out she was interested else where But today I was at the store and I grabbed a cart and she looked over at me at seemed almost grossed or idk embarrassed to be near me we didn’t even know each other and that hurts bad it makes me wish I didn’t exist sometimes and I also don’t want to hang out with freinds cause I think that they even think that I’m ugly just from looks and these are my day 1s but overall I think that I just long for true companionship someone that likes me and I like them but no one I know is like that and I’m straight which is irrelevant but even gay guys think I’m ugly but all I want is a repashonshop someone that can look past my face and I have been told Im not that ugly and I don’t believe it I think they lie just cause I am family or freinds

I am a teenager and I am disgusted my face I don’t know why I have sharp and defined features decent hair I hate the way I look and I am not that bad looking so people say but I am also incredibly sad a lot and embarrassed of showing my body not cause Im fat or anything I just feel ugly like no good peice of my exists . Their was this one time in class where I was paired with a girl I sat down and she looked up and had a look of pure disgust and said eww which had no effect at gbe moment but when I got home I cried I where baggy pants thick hoodies even in heat I hate myself . I also have no clue how to convey my feelings of sadness every day I get asked if I’m okay and I just say yes cause I don’t want people to worry but the truth is Im not sure if I want to live Im not saying I would kms but I do contemplate it sometimes

I have many people in my life that care for me and I don’t want to hurt them in any way but to be honest I have been struggling with the will of continue ing life I don’t know I want to life and sometimes wish that I could go to sleep and just never wake up . Also i don’t understand how to show my inner feelings I get asked if I’m doing alright a lot and I just say okay cause it’s easier than explaining and because of Im inner entrapped feelings I feel alone as if no one truely gets me or could understand does anyone else experience this