u/Ghosts_R_fake_-

Im an introvert, whose probably spending a little Too much pondering on everything but I've been plunged into this introspective mode..

This isn't a "i need friends post."..

But here we go

Im currently kind of going through a hard reset of sorts. So when it comes to making/ sustaining friendships outside of your normal introverted world.

What's a big driving factor that causes you to retract into your "shell"?

Personally I feel as if I can't stop the shallow or draining activities from hanging out with extroverted personalities that didn't seem too daunting at first.

This is mostly from a lack of boundaries or, the boundaries that I had in place were compromised? This is pretty undone cause of the heavy pot smoking habits , combined with over indulgence of alcohol.. yep ooops there on my part.

Having that being said.I also feel the need to state that Im nuerodivergent ,I have my bouts where im clean and functional, and then there's the lows. I know what grounds me as far as keeping myself away from all the riff raff( hobbies, interests, passions etc etc.)

Ive struggled with finding myself through professionalism/ career placement.. therefore I felt stuck for so many years which led me to being complacent. Then after sometime I feel back to old ways .. then every unraveled to due to my introverted life experience I didnt reach out or say anything I just put on autopilot and coasted.

Now dont get me wrong , I was fairly busy and overall in a somewhat positive mindset for a good amount of time,until I wasn't. That's when I started questioning myself and turned to pot and eventually alcohol. Long story short cause I dont wanna type out a term paper...

It's worth noting that I am an better environment now to deal with a lot of what's been keeping me aloof all these years, gaining control so I can better build myself up with an better social ecosystem .

I do tend to make friends easily, I just can't seem to find that small circle that are my same energy. I do in fact enjoy social interaction, as long as it doesn't take away from my introvert life. I am a homebody but not a shut in. Times like these it just seems soooo overwhelming difficult to find that ideal balance . Please comment or maybe message any thoughts you could share .

Cause man I tell you I really could use a little bit of insight if not at least (:

Ps thanks for reading if you did make it to the end of this long inquiry haha

Have a good week!

First off, I just wanna introduce myself!

My name is L( not my real name but its about as much as im willing to share for now..)

Im only a few short weeks into my journey, but im feeling somewhat optimistic about quitting my vice. Im realizing that I needed to get away from my environment and I did it even though it was really difficult.

I felt so apprehensive in doing so, but it's come to my surprise what came after actually improving my chances on leaving the bottle behind me.

Im not counting days.. only weeks and positive affirmations.

It's been really difficult especially with mother's day happening ( I dont have a solid relationship with my mother.) She was a bad alcoholic, worse then I ever was.

It pains me to say she's my "cautionary tale" that and my younger friends that I also had to put a greater distance.

I wish all of you souls struggling and / or thinking of quitting a good resolve i doing so. Even if it seems hopeless.. you can't give up♡ please 🙏