u/GingerelTalk

I've been struggling with really bad derealization and existential dread as of recently. I'm just scared and don't know if I can get it to go away.

I have health anxiety that gets exacerbated by the other things I'm dealing with, making me aware of every ache and pain in my body. I feel like my legs will give out sometimes, but they don't. I feel like my vision will go black, but it doesn't. I always feel a sense of dizziness and lightheadedness.

I've been struggling with existential thoughts such as, "What if I'm in a dream? What if I'm in a coma? What if I'm in a simulation? What if nothing is real? What if the people I care about aren't real?"

I'm worried that all these symptoms are indicative of a physical brain problem. I'm scared that I'm dying. I get so anxious I feel as though I might pass out.

I'm scared that I will develop psychosis or no longer be myself because of the derealization and existential dread. I've dealt with derealization before, but not to this extent. I just don't know what to do anymore. It feels so difficult to do daily tasks. I'm scared.

I'm so scared and can't sleep. I know that logically, I'm alive and in the real world, but the thoughts have gotten so convincing as of recently. I've been having really bad derealization and a general feeling of being out of it, and this new unwell feeling in my body doesn't help. I feel every small ache in my head, and I'm sensitive to any slight dizzy feeling. I'm simultaneously afraid of not being real and worried that I'm dying. It's really scaring me, and I'm worried that I'll genuinely lose my mind or develop psychosis. I want to know that I'm real. I want to cry. I hate this theme so much.