Severe Pharmacophobia (specifically in hospital settings)
I have this overwhelming fear of being given psychoactive substances in hospital settings and not being able to advocate for myself and I feel so alone because I’ve never met anybody else with this exact fear. I’m scared I’ll need to have like an appendectomy, a gallbladder removal, a severe bone fracture, a kidney stone, some emergency thing that’ll land me in the hospital and they’ll give me opioids, ketamine, benzos, etc. without asking if it’s okay first and I won’t feel like myself or be taken seriously and I’ll be laughed at or spoken to like a child and I won’t be able to advocate for myself. It’s my worst fear and I don’t know how to cope with it. To clarify, general anesthesia does not bother me at all, and doing psychoactive drugs in recreational settings does not bother me at all. It only bothers me in medical settings besides general anesthesia.