Pivoting between giving up or actually learn how to try
Im in a crisis where I have no direction in life and i have no education or humility whatsoever. If I want to continue living I have to serve in the military, to learn whats right and whats wrong. Or I end my pathetic life and be done with it. I cant decide help me pls
22M flunked out of college because I never learned how to work on myself. I havent made any progress since highschool. Never found my identity, my whole life feels like Im living for someone else’s sake.
I have a loving family who keeps forgiving me but I just can’t find my spark in life.
In this lifetime I dont think I can make them proud especially not the way I have been behaving lately.
Update: August 15th marks another miserable year spent. I planned out how I would go through with my method. Lets just say Im going to face my fear of heights.
I came to the realization that I will always hate myself no matter what I do. Other people's opinion never played a part in my life, I would listen but never implement change
Is it really giving up if I never tried? What's gonna change if the world loses another casual smooth brainer anyway, I just don't care at all.