Struggling badly mentally. Feeling like it haunts me constantly. Afraid I’ll never find anyone again.
Posting this at the risk that people will make triggering comments. Please try and have some empathy. I went no contact with him a couple
Months ago for the first time. It’s had been very hard. At first I really thought I was okay and that I was doing better. After a couple months the thoughts have started to eat away at me, and I realize that the brainwashing he did during the relationship is taking a toll on me. He used to beat the crap out of me because he said my past experiences with other people I was involved with before him disgusted him. He told me I’m worthless now and that nobody will ever want someone with a past like mine. And that was also his only justification and reason to mentally and physically hurt me, and cheat on me, lie to me, etc. it kills me inside. I feel like I can’t live with my past anymore. I’m afraid I’ll never move on or find anyone who will accept me. I’ve always been alone and I have no family, and now I’m afraid I’ll never have a family because of my past. I am in major therapy and even started meds but nothing seems to make it go away. I don’t know what to do anymore. I just need someone to tell me it’s gonna be okay and that things will somehow work out for me one day.