u/Glittering-Jury-9055

Almost- if not everything- has sexual content or innuendo or something sexual in it. Music, games, books, movies, shows, literally every piece of media. I gave up on my dream of becoming a game developer because of fandoms (iykyk) and I stopped writing my ideas down and creating in general because there's no point. I absolutely hate myself for being so hyper-aware because it makes me feel dirty minded and paranoid.

I'm always getting told 'so don't interact with it/just avoid it' and similar things, but if it's everywhere, how do I? Society, especially online, is so overly saturated.

I'm too scared to tell anybody in my life, especially about my views on labels in general. (like how apothi shouldn't be a microlabel because repulsion isn't the same as no attraction, or that I'm not sex-positive, but not sex-negative either.) I don't identify as apothi, but it's easier to just pick one and explain.

I see it from a biological perspective since I'm really into biology, so I really confuse myself sometimes, haha

romance wise, it's complicated. If it happens, it happens- but I would want it to be with an apothi woman first. Not sure if that makes me aromantic though.

There's more to this, but I don't want to overshare.

Oh, and a fun etymology fact I keep thinking about-

I never really liked using -phobia to describe hate because it means 'fear of'. -Misia (or mis-) means 'hatred', like how misandry means hatred of men and how misogyny means hatred of women.
just a little hyper-fixation of mine

I saw the prequel only, but it was a few years ago. this is what I remember:

• There was one guy, younger at the time, who did all the acting, with I believe one additional voice actor as an older woman, pretty sure she had a slight British accent. Not sure if she was prequel exclusive.
• It had a theme about dreams (or something adjacent)
• There was a popular(?) audio that came out of it? It was a female voice saying the character's name like, '[name]?' and his breath hitched. There was more to the audio
• an apple was involved in a scene (I don't think the apple is important, I could be wrong), two characters bumped into each other (not literally) at a grocery store or market and talked. I believe one of them had a dead wife?
• It wasn't high budget, there weren't any fancy graphics or camera movements that I remember
• They eventually 'wake up' from the dream and it turns out they were hired for an organization of sorts? And that the lives in the 'dreams' were fake and they were younger than in the dream
• It was in an 'in-order' playlist, and the prequel was first. Some comments were like 'this makes so much more sense' and 'this should be a show on Netflix'

The one scene I remember clearly is the older woman's character leaning a bit out a window to talk to the main character, and the camera is facing the window from a distance at a slightly lower angle, and it took place during the day. I'm pretty sure the house was white.

This is a repost of my original post, I made an account only for this. If I violated any rules, please let me know!

*2010s- early 2020s

I saw the prequel only, but it was a few years ago. this is what I remember:

• There was one guy, younger at the time, who did all the acting, with I believe one additional voice actor as an older woman, pretty sure she had a slight British accent. Not sure if she was prequel exclusive.
• It had a theme about dreams (or something adjacent)
• There was a popular(?) audio that came out of it? It was a female voice saying the character's name like, '[name]?' and his breath hitched. There was more to the audio
• an apple was involved in a scene (I don't think the apple is important, I could be wrong), two characters bumped into each other (not literally) at a grocery store or market and talked. I believe one of them had a dead wife?
• It wasn't high budget, there weren't any fancy graphics or camera movements that I remember
• They eventually 'wake up' from the dream and it turns out they were hired for an organization of sorts? And that the lives in the 'dreams' were fake and they were younger than in the dream
• It was in an 'in-order' playlist, and the prequel was first. Some comments were like 'this makes so much more sense' and 'this should be a show on Netflix'

The one scene I remember clearly is the older woman's character leaning a bit out a window to talk to the main character, and the camera is facing the window from a distance at a slightly lower angle. I'm pretty sure the house was white.

This my first Reddit post, I made an account only for this. If I violated any rules, please let me know!