lately i have been really really happy lately for no reason hehe :3
Even tho i came out of a breakup not so long ago
I genuinely just dont care anymore and have been happy and enjoying life lately
Im really happy idk why but im really happy
HEHEHEHEHHEHEHEE :3
A year ago i came here to say "proof that Islam is correct is bal bla bla" and a couple of months ago i became an atheist, or agnostic or wtv you call it
Just wanted to come here and give an update cuz why not
What made me stop being a Muslim?
I noticed that there is just no proof for anything
Its either a he said she said situation
Or its a logical fallacy like "idk who made this so its god" or smt like that yk?
Im much happier as an atheist too
Now i actually have morals not just a book of "do and don't"
My boyfriend (M19) of 240 days like 8 months broke up with me (M18) less than a week ago
Yesterday he told me he found a date
Its a guy he told me about when we were together not so long ago
And he told me that he is currently sleeping in his bed
And im just devastated i cried badly
Talked to him told him how i feel
And he said its normal for me to feel that way
We kinda wanna stay friends
I still love him tho...
He is also helping me financially so i dont wanna cut him off (idk if thats selfish)
I took a break
But i come back 4 hours later saying "im all fine i cried and i came to the conclusion that i dont care cuz its not my business"
And he said its unhealthy for me to be like that
I said nah but it definitely is
Cuz later that night after i told him goodnight
I just sat on my bed unable to sleep
My mind thinking about him
Thinking that he isnt mine anymore
We aren't together anymore
We aren't in love anymore
Im not his anymore, im not his special person anymore
And i kept thinking that they probably fucked
On the first date...
Im just fucking devastated
I want to die ASAP
Genuinely feeling like im worthless and disposable
Cant move on
Cant do shit
Im just stuck
Please, any advice im in need of help