Starting again, starting small
I am WAY far off from where I should be eating wise. I won't go into excuses.
I am not in the "just starting a diet and highly motivated" mode. Wish I was. I am in the weary from years of dieting and dreading restrictions and misery stage.
So I had my meeting with the nutritionist and we agreed I would just start with 2 simple rules.
Eat meals at 7, 12, and 6 pm plus 2 small protein snacks at 10 am and 3 pm. That's it. Not the constant eating I have been doing round the clock.
Second, have food that requires chewing, with protein first and add vegetables, that I eat slowly while sitting at a table for at least 30 minutes.
It is at least a place to start. Better than the overwhelming feeling I get of trying to readopt the thousands of food rules I have accumulated after years of dieting. Challenging enough that I know I will go crazy tonight after dinner with the thought of not eating until 7 am.
I acknowledge that I have slipped into a really unhealthy mode of wanting every meal to bring me pleasure and the evil seduction of candy and processed foods. Detoxing from that again will be rough. Guess that is where I am right now, and the best I can do is keep trying.