u/Gloomy_Stock742

This is soooo irritating. I genuinely do not like my mom. She is soo freaking petty and love bombs me 😭. She first of all goes above and beyond where it is not necessary, like she cooked so much on the first day i arrived. I was genuinely not hungry that day. I was also jet-lagged and all i wanted to do was sleep and watch TV. She was so upset that my sister and I did not eat the food. Fair enough, i would be upset too if i do so much work and it all goes to waste. She continued this for a few days. I literally did not want to eat anything. She kept on asking if i wanted her to make something or order something every 2 hours she was at home.

Now that I have finally adjusted to the timezone , she has gone back to her own life and now i have to beg her to make something. She couldn't care less. ughhhh. I have taken it upon myself to make my own food. again fair enough. My only problem is, if she did not want to actually do anything, she should have been clear about it so i could atleast make my own plans instead of relying on her. It has been so annoying and anxiety inducing that i don't know if she is actually doing to do something or not.

See, i get her perspective, she put a lot of efforts, nobody acknowledged it, now she isn't doing anything but from my perspective, it is obvious that my food timings is not going to immediately match with my family's atleast for a few days, and then every thing will go back to normal.

But she has done this every single time I have been away and come back. Always asking me if i need something and being extra attentive first 2 days and suddenly leaving me to fend for myself so i have gotten used to it but it always catches me offguard.

My sister refuses to leave my room. All I want to do is be alone, but also whenever I try talking to her, she doesn't even care and half of the time doesn't even reply. I feel like she doesn't even respect me. fair enough, but she keeps disturbing me when i want to do something that requires me to be locked in without any regard. I don't know how to deal with her.

Our dog is completely undisciplined and always wants to be in the room. Nobody in this house wants to take proper care of him. I have suggested so many times that we should give him away if taking care of him is hard, but they just nod their heads and move on.

My dad hasn't signed my gurantor form for 3 months now. I am in the process of changing it from my dad to form.

Everyone in my family is sooooo unreliable. I don't know what to expect from them except disappointment. It is not my job to manage them.

I dont know what i sound like right now, but it is so hard to relax in this environment and i want to go back to college as soon as possible.

I might have misheard it but someone said the repeats for this Ben Taylor's module is not with other modules...like it will not be between 1st-15th August. This has something to do with it being in a lab and not an exam hall. Is it true?

I want to talk about one specific subject.

Mathematical Analysis.

Here is why it is different from all the other subjects that I study ( physics, finance, differential equations, calculus, statistics)

This is that one subject that I keep getting dejected about.
It is a subject that needs to be studied in your head. It cannot be written down on paper and practiced to actually study and that is the beauty of it and i found it the hard way out.

My exam is in 4 hours.

I tried studying this subject the whole semester but to no avail. I literally could not get it into my head. I tried writing down everything in the notes like I did with other subjects, but that did not work. I scored 1/10 in one of the tests and I was the only one who scored so low.

So what was I doing wrong? My methods clearly worked for other subjects.

The thing is that this is one of those subjects where mindless work simply does not work. There is no formula to plug in and there are no definitions to memorise.
It is all intelligence.
infact if there was any real measure of intelligence, then that would go to this one subject.

Now don't get me wrong, other subjects are not mindless goldmines, BUT if you CAN get good marks in other subjects even if you don't understand them completely, as long as you show that you know what you are doing or mention the right key words, you might get some marks, but not for this one.

edit: also another thing, I have never heard this as a method but i literally mindlessly copied down my professor's notes on a few pages to get into the subject and be less scared of the subject if that makes any sense.

Are there any places like parks or other communal spaces that have partial shade such that I an enjoy a sunbath but my laptop can stay covered and there is an outlet for laptop nearby.

I am tired of being cooped up in my room but I also want to get work done. I would love to do it in fresh air.