I have been researching BPD for last week or two, and i feel like i relate to every symptom i’ve been reading about. But the thing is, I was never abused. Can it stem from a non-abusive traumatic event?
Basically when I was around 4-5, my mum fell down the stairs and she was completely paralysed, as well as her heart stopping and having to have CPR to continue working. She also had to be hospitalised for a month or two. The whole thing really traumatised me and after she came back, I was never more than three feet away from her at all times, I would have a meltdown whenever she had to go somewhere I couldn’t come with, it was horrible for both of us (to the point she slept in my room). This behaviour carried on until i was around 8-9 but slowly got better, with me at 9 only being scared when she left the house, I no longer had to be beside her constantly.
I went to therapy at 10, which was during covid so it was via video call, but they diagnosed me with C-PTSD. I’ve never felt like the symptoms of C-PTSD link up with mine now, and in-fact, her falling down the stairs doesn’t even worry me at her, I’m completely past that, and yet I still have these horrible symptoms that I can only link to BPD. I’m 14 now and constantly have horrible thoughts,
So basically, would this event cause BPD? I’m asking here because due to personal family issues, I missed the CAHMS appointment that i’ve been waiting like 8 years for and i’m just completely lost now. Any help at all would be appreciated.