This is more just speaking now. I went through all the feelings and now I don't even care anymore. I'm looking forward to my new life and glad it will be free of your mind riot. I'm not in pain. I'm not angry. I'm happy being me with no you or anyone. A new open horizon. Calm. No bull shit. I'm indifferent.
So much yearning and heartfelt messages. I don't think any one has ever felt that way about me. I wonder why? Is it because I'm always the yearner? I'm not and have never been yearn worthy? I don't inspire yearning or allow anyone to yearn? It's a mystery to be sure.
In one hour we could be in the same room. Touching. Doing all the things we both want. Laughing. Alive. Loving. I know you want to.
Or we can never speak or see each other ever again. Ever. It really is crazy.
If you just talked honestly and openly. No games. Nothing hidden. Just truth. A whole world could open. So much fun. So much happiness. Why???? Why not???