
Yaar mere saath kya ho gya tha????
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So yeh sab meri college days se start hota hai. 4-year course tha, aur woh second counseling mein join hui thi. First day hi computer lab mein mere paas aake baithi, aur wahan se casual baat-cheet start ho gayi.
Dheere dheere log notice karne lage. Mere friends mujhe tease karte the, uske friends usko. Initially woh thoda irritate hoti thi jab mere friends tease karte, but baad mein jab uske khud ke friends karte, toh bas shy smile ya ignore kar deti thi.
Class mein hum zyada baat nahi karte the, but online scene pura alag tha. WhatsApp, Instagram pe proper conversations—memes, songs, random talks. Agar 2–3 din baat nahi hoti, toh usually woh hi kuch bhej ke convo restart karti thi.
Main hamesha helpful side pe tha—notes, projects, academics, sab mein. Kabhi mana nahi kiya. Zyada tar baatein uske around hoti thi—uska daily life, laziness, chhoti problems. Apne ex ke baare mein bhi bataya—kaise usne cheat kiya, treat achha nahi kiya. Tab bhi main peeche nahi hata, bas flow ke saath chalta raha.
3rd year mein main kuch din leave pe tha. Tab usne message kiya, check kiya kya hua—woh cheez genuine lagi.
Phir mujhe job mil gayi, main college se nikal ke ghar aa gaya. Still baat chalti rahi—memes, songs, random chats. Ek time pe hum ek dusre ko “Tom and Jerry” bhi bolte the mazaak mein.
Ek baar teasing mein hi usne Valentine’s Day pe milne ko bhi haan bol diya tha. But meri taraf se woh kabhi execute nahi hua.
Phir dheere dheere shift aaya.
Ek din usne bola koi junior usko hit kar raha hai. Us time main hometown mein tha. Phir usne mujhse poocha ki mujhe kaun pasand hai. Maine socha yahi moment hai, aur directly bol diya—tu hi.
Phir seedha poocha: agar properly puchu toh yes ya no?
Usne bola—na yes bol sakti hoon, na no.
Reason diya ki life mein bohot kuch figure out karna hai, growth, etc. Saath hi yeh bhi bola ki main jo effort aur help diya usko woh appreciate karti hai.
Wahin se samajh aana chahiye tha, but main phir bhi raha.
2 din baad phir usne mere feelings ke baare mein poocha. Maine bola mere toh hamesha the (jo ki realistically utna consistent nahi tha). Usne bola uske “on and off” the.
Wahi line stuck ho gayi.
Beech mein yeh bhi bola ki uski ek friend ne usko bola tha ki agar main kabhi propose karu toh reject kar dena. Tab ignore kiya, ab dekh ke lagta hai signs the.
Uske baad chats dry hone lagi. Energy down.
Phir maine clear ultimatum diya—yes ya no.
Ek din mein hi usne bola decision nahi le paungi, regret ho sakta hai, aur back off kar gayi.
Wahin khatam ho jana chahiye tha.
Phir bhi kabhi kabhi:
reels bhejna
stories jaldi dekhna
random likes
Jaise kuch linger kar raha ho bina matlab ke.
Ek baar maine casually milne ko bola—direct reject.
Ek phase aaya jahan maine usko block kiya, phir unblock. Usko us baat pe gussa tha. Still birthdays pe wish karte rahe.
College event mein jab uske friends phir tease kar rahe the, woh phir se shy smile kar rahi thi. Sab ajeeb lag raha tha.
End mein maine final closure liya. Bola agar no hai toh properly bol.
Usne no bola.
Saath mein yeh bhi bola ki ab kuch nahi chahiye, aur main sirf good nahi, great guy hoon.
Wahin end.
Ab kaafi time ho gaya.
Kisi ladki ke saath proper interaction nahi hua.
No talking stage, no connection, nothing.
Life ab simple hai:
job
ghar ki responsibilities
gym
kabhi guitar, kabhi TV
Din theek se nikal jaate hain—structured, under control.
But social side, especially opposite gender ke saath, almost zero hai. Office mein bhi mostly older log hain.
Kisi ko dekh ke bhi koi strong reaction nahi aata. Na approach karne ka mann, na interest.
Raat ko kabhi kabhi halka sa empty feel hota hai, but intense nahi.
Overall life calm hai, no drama, no confusion… but us side pe kuch ho bhi nahi raha.
Bas aise hi chal raha hai.
Aur ab sawaal yeh hai—aisa chalta raha toh future interactions kaise rahenge?