u/GrettaMCatts

My Cancer is like a younger, annoying sibling that I am forced to bring everywhere with me, or maybe a little trickster goblin I’m in charge of keeping track of. Everywhere I want to be, there is Cancer following right behind like “wait for me, please” but if I don’t wait, then the temper tantrums start. Cancer knows all the tricks, the pain, discomfort, weird symptoms, hair loss, sleeplessness, too much sleepiness, it’s never quite the right amount of anything, just enough to remind me all the time that I have to watch Cancer too along with whatever else I’m doing. My g tube? Don’t forget to flush it, it’d be a shame if it were to clog up. My port site, calm and boring-not for long bitches! Now it itches like nobody’s business! I want to go for a walk outside? Sudden exhausting fatigue. Ok, a nap sounds nice, but Cancer has decided it want to hang over the toilet, sometimes wretching, sometimes just cursing. And insomnia. If it wasn’t for Cancer, I wouldn’t need chemo and radiation and I wouldn’t have to plan my days around appointments and Cancer’s tantrums. I want a nice relaxing day, Cancer wants to take me on an emotional loop de loop rollercoaster and forgets to buckle me in (again). Just always there, waiting for me to think I’ve got this under control, and then here she comes like the kool-aid man busting in making everything awkward and leaving me a sobbing mess. I’m still gonna kick her ass, just when mom isn’t looking.

I posted about it before , but this time I’m wondering if anyone had any tips to soothe the facial/neck redness/sunburn feeling I get if they had something similar happen to them. TIA

ETA I have physicians, they just don’t have much more than shrugging their shoulders.

The starlings here, while full of fun and chaos, have been overwhelming recently. So except for a platform with whole peanuts and a Brome weighted feeder with safflower and sunflower seeds, my feeders are down and cleaned and stored for at least 2 weeks (possibly more if I enjoy doing less work). My bird baths are still out, and I feed my crows 🐦‍⬛🐦‍⬛at specific times. It’s spring and the birds should be able to find plenty to eat naturally anyways. The starlings can move along now, nothing to see or eat here.

I was diagnosed 3/16, I’m starting my third week of chemo/radiation. I have a peg tube, I have a port, I have pain meds and magic mouthwash and fatigue and pain, but I’ve felt somewhat ok. Like my brain felt pretty good. My pain was getting harder to manage and today they switched me from hydrocodone 5 mg up to 4 x day to extended release morphine 30 mg twice a day and I was like holy poop, dumbass, I really have cancer. It’s not really my first realisation, but this made it feel so real. This has been a terrible day anyway, and that just made it feel worse, even though my pain is so much better controlled.

So yesterday I went for a walk around my neighbourhood, and I noticed my two crows Cronan and Crow-da were just kinda gliding around following me, with Cronan occasionally coming down a bit lower. I never feed them on my walks, only at my house. I will see them in certain areas, but never my whole walk. When I got to the area I believe they are nesting at, they left and came out with a third smaller crow and flew around a bit like “Look at our baby!” And then they left and the two adults followed me and came to my house for a snack 🐦‍⬛🐦‍⬛🐦‍⬛

My only regret is not getting pictures but I didn’t want people to think I was taking pictures of their houses 😬

I had my port implanted a week ago Monday and it is driving me loopy with how itchy it is around the site. The port itself feels fine and it looks good, but about 2” (5cm) around it is so itchy. The only thing I’ve found that works is an ice pack. I’ve tried allergy meds, cortisone cream, lido cream etc, but my Dr says sometimes the sites are itchy as they heal. Did anyone have this happen? How long did it last? Do you have any tricks to make it stop?

This was a ppu polish from April 25. Does anyone have this and worn as a velvet or glass bead they can show me? TIA

To be clear-I called my provider, and they think it’s the pre-med steroid from yesterday.

I woke up today with what looks and feels like a sunburned face and chest after my first chemo yesterday (taxol and carboplatin), with decadron as one of my premeds. Did any one else experience similar? How long did it last for you? No itching or swelling or anything else. I was just wondering if anyone had a similar experience and how it went for them. TIA

I have my first chemo and radiation today and I am looking for distractions, so show me or tell me you absolute favorite of your collection. What makes it your favorite? Is it the color, finish, or does it trigger a happy memory for you? I’d love to see and hear stories 💖

I’m still wearing EdM Just the One bc no chips or wear.

My favorite is Lurid Oil on Canvas. The deep green reminds me of playing in the woods behind my house as a kid, plus it’s a favorite color of mine. It’s got the subtlest shift and smooth glitter.

My port went in yesterday, and tomorrow morning is my first chemo and radiation. I’ll be doing taxol and carboplatin. I have esophogeal gastric junction cancer. I’m both ready to start and terrified.