u/GreyCatsAreCuties

Hi everyone. Last week I noticed my daughter's thyroid looked enlarged and felt swollen, so I took her in to the doctors. They did an ultrasound first which confirmed an inflamed and enlarged thyroid. Then the blood work came back yesterday with a TSH of 93 (yes, that high) an anti TPO of 55, and low t3 and t4. The doctor today said he is 99% sure this is hashimotos, and started her on 75mcg of levothyroxine this morning.

I am just feeling so sad for her and wonder if it's been this way for a while as the last year she gained a ton of weight pretty rapidly even though she eats healthy and is very active. I've also noticed her hair thinning, and she's had dark circles for years. Ugh. It's weird because she says she feels completely normal. I know it's a very manageable condition but the thought of her having to take a pill every day just makes me feel sad even though I know she needs it. Does anyone else here have younger kids with this disease?

Long story short, I have been a stay at home, mom from 2016, until about 3 years ago. I used to homeschool my daughter, but I put her in public school 3 years ago so I could get back into the work force. However, every single full-time job I end up getting, I really struggle with all the sacrifices I have to make and I end up quitting.

During my time as a stay at home, mom, I have had many part-time and side gig jobs that im able to work around school hours, and they always work out for me, but I don't make the kind of money I wish I could be making so then I end up applying for all these full-time jobs in hopes of making it work, and I just can't. My kid is 10 and she's the only one me and my husband will ever have, so I don't want to miss out on anything , but I also want to be able to provide. I want to work and I know there's no excuse for me to be a stay at home mom when I have a 10-year-old who's in school all day.

For example, 2 weeks ago I got hired at what I thought would be my dream job making more money than I could have ever imagined, but 2 weeks in and I realized it's not for me, so I quit and now I feel like a huge let down to my family. I had to wake up at 3 AM for a 1 hour commute and then work 12 hours shifts, 6 days a week doing extremely physical and dangerous mechanical work. So I was gone 3am to 6pm and had to go to sleep around 8, saw my daughter for 1 hour a day.

I know I'm lucky enough to have been in this situation where I'm able to choose, but I'm just wondering if anyone else has gone through anything similar, and how you made it work.

I sent my boss an email last night saying it's not a good fit for me and I am resigning affective immediately.

I got a really high paying job, the most money I've ever made in my life, but I couldn't do it. Little back story, I am a female and tried to break into the world of industrial mechanics as that's my hobby at home (well, auto repair). But i quickly realized i cant do it. I knew after the first few days I could not see myself working here.

At this job I had to wake up at 3am for a 1hr commute, didnt get home til 6pm, and have gone the last 2 weeks without seeing my daughter at all. 12hr shifts 6 days a week. Im a hard worker, i work my ass off at all my jobs, but the job was so tough i physically was not capable of the majorty of the tasks. 95% of the 12hr shift was spent using an angle grinder in a hot box that felt like a sauna and its not even summer yet. And also standing beneath 20,000lb machines hanging by slings was terrifying. I have been having panic attacks every night trying to go to bed, and every morning when I get to work, it's ridiculous. I feel like an idiot and a let down to my family even thoigh my huband is so understanding and supportive.

My background before this was cleaning, which ive been doing for 15 years and i keep trying to break out of it for somethibg more meaningful and it never works out, i always end up going back to cleaning. Do i just need to realize what im suited for and suck it up?