Guy I met at seaworld on a trip with a disabled group and he was really pushy being around us. Messages us repeatedly though we don’t really respond. Sent this. Is it ai?
My (18m) boyfriend (18m) of 9 months sleeps so late into the day and every time it makes me enraged and upset. We live an hour apart and he doesn’t have a car or license. The only way we see each other is I drive and pay the gas and food roughly twice a week for my ketamine treatment. I had treatment yesterday and went back to his house for a while. He took my new weed pen and said till we saw each other again which already had me ticked. I got home and we mentioned seeing each other tomorrow (now today) if I could afford to drive up. My mom came in my room around 3 and asked me to go to the mall for her and I agreed and started calling my boyfriend because he was asleep (he fell asleep around 8AM from the message time stamps). He answered groggy and I begged him to go with me which he didn’t respond to. I asked him to please stake awake while I showered and he agreed. I called back 5-7 minutes later and he didn’t answer and had gone back to bed. It’s currently 8:11 PM. I cannot see him today now. I work Monday through Saturday 9:30 AM to 6:00 PM. I have ketamine treatment Wednesdays and Saturdays. I got Wednesday off all of July but now I don’t think I will because since biweekly appointments are over I only have them Saturdays where I work 9:30 to 2:00. I’m angry. I’ve been taking edibles all day and getting drinks ready for tonight. He’ll wake up soon probably feeling shitty. But this is a normal occurrence and I’ve mentioned repeatedly how upset it makes me when he does this. I usually get so upset and angry I spam him with pleading and begging and crying because I fear he blocked me again. I’m autistic and my emotions aren’t easy for me to hold together. I cry and yell and hurt myself.
Am I overreacting being so angry? I don’t want to feel this way over him sleeping but it feels major to me. I can hardly talk to him some days and when he wakes up from these whole day sleeps he’s usually uninterested in talking to me. I wanna drink myself to sleep over this.
After posting that it’s now the next day, he opened everything and liked my insta story about being lonely and hearted it but not my sweet song note about him.
Edit: yes I’m in therapy (have been for 5-7 years), ketamine and regular in person therapy
And I smoke weed to help with chronic pain I deal with due to chronic inflammatory arthritis and other health issues
TLDR bf cheated twice with ex and i just found messages from 2 years ago of him absolutely destroying me to the ex and a friend. I think I’m overreacting with how severely I’m affected.
I (18 trans ftm) found messages from my bf (18 m) of 7 months to his friends yesterday. One being his ex. Talking about how I was mentally unwell and crazy but hot enough. He asked friend A smash or pass on me as well as said "Game is infact game and she doesn't look too bad. Actually pretty good for the area I'm in" and his friend said "she looks like the epitome of a white girl with daddy's money". (At this time I was homeless with my mother while she was dying from a disease eating her lungs) This was before we dated and were friends but flirting. He was dating friend B at the time but broke things off and asked me out. I knew nothing about his relationship. I drew NSFW of our characters together which he laughed about and never once told me to stop. I have autism spectrum disorder and struggle badly with jokes and tones. He’s very up front. Never once did he complain about the drawings. But he sent them to Friend B saying how he wanted to swing on me and let him call me disgusting things. Letting them and himself misgender me despite knowing the full 4 years of our friendship that I’m trans and present fairly masculine.
This was all on discord. In 2024 October we got together and broke up February of 2025. We got back together this past October after summer. I’d had another relationship where it ended because she said I was too suicidal and ghosted me. I didn’t know he dated Friend B again till a few months in and he said it wasn’t serious. Then I found him cheated on me emotionally with friend B and talking horribly about me to both friends.
I’m almost 3 months clean of Self Harm (8 years and recently hospitalized from a suicide attempt) and recovery feels so hard right now. I Love this guy. We’ve talked about marriage and we’ve helped each other through so much. He said I was overreacting when I found the messages and cried till I was sick and drank till I was dizzy and sick. Every moment I see him I remember everything said about me. Every comment on my body and how deranged and sick I am. Claiming I intimately abused him when we were mutually intimate and verbalized consent so his ex (friend B) would insult me and talk about how disgusting of a person I am. While drawing photos of their OCs having intimacy.
Am I overreacting? I don’t know how to stop blaming myself and feel normal. Every moment alone since I’ve thought about taking my own life. I think he’d be better with his ex if I was dead. He cheated twice in both relationships with the same guy and cussed at me, hit me, and blocked me multiple times in the start of our second go because of his lasting feelings for his ex. I might be overreacting with my severe reaction wanting to take my life. He said it was 2 years ago and everyone’s forgotten about it by now. But I just found it and I’m distraught. It’s new to me. Am I overreacting and it’s not that big of a deal? I don’t know what to do with myself. I blame myself and I can’t leave him. I won’t.
Tried AIO because I really think I’m overthinking it because it was a long time ago and I don’t process things right.