u/Guilty-Attempt6502

Deluxe Edition

Msix extra day-one animals is that all?
Is that worth the extra money?

I have been in therapy a total of 10 years to come to terms with some extreme trauma I experienced.

Through this process I have come to realize and understand myself better ( pretty much I have gaslighted myself unknowingly my whole life)

I finally opened up about some easier parts of my experiences in this last year. ( I had a very hard time with that)

The actual worst things I just haven’t gone into, and now tiered of “doing the work “

I am much better and told my T we should probably end therapy by the end of the year ( it’s just soo much money with bad health insurance)

I actually don’t want to quit because therapy and my T gives me a sense of security. I feel I’m waisting money just talking about regular stuff.

When I mentioned it before she’s been resistant, even offering a steep discount. But I can’t because of feeling guilty about her doing that and that triggers my past abuse. I need full autonomy to feel ok and safe.

I’m wondering if I’m actually just avoiding the hard part. Or if I’m better.