How do I stand up for myself?
I (16f) have had various people whisper mean things to their friend about me during class. Everytime that happens I freeze, I feel stuck inside my head and stay silent. In the few times I got the nerve to say something, my words are weak, even if I practice it a hundred times, its like all the power is sucked out and my confidence is shot. What makes things extra difficult is the environment. For me I struggle with breaking the rules. I am so scared of the consequences in the moment that I have never stood up for myself in class. Then I go home angry at myself months even years later thinking about the things I could have said or could say in the future. I want to be able to stand up for myself when nobody will, I want to be strong and confident and make them fill like sht for being a btch when I am just trying to do my work. I want to be able to improvise smack top or be able to shut someone up (without violence). So I ask again, how do I stand up for myself.