u/Gullible_Pattern_980

So just a week ago, me and my friend decided to repaste our own CPU. Everything went well until a week after wherein I noticed that my unit is overheating for some reason. Thermal Paste used was the Cooler Master Cryofuse 5. Like before repasting, my average temps when gaming was about 80-85 and on some instances, it event spiked to 88, but never reached 90+. After applying a fresh thermal paste and even did some cleaning, my temps suddenly spiked to 95 and around 70-ish when idle. I was like WHAT???

I never noticed this until today cause I began to suspect that my PC became even more hotter than before. I went ahead and see and was surprised that the stock cooler is not working. Like the CPU fan is not spinning at all. I went ahead and checked with my friend and there were no issues on his end so we decided to isolate the issue and swapped stock coolers.

This is where I find it weird cause when I plugged his stock cooler to mine and my friend plugged my stock cooler to his, guess what happened? Both worked. I initially thought that my stock cooler was having issues, but I guess not cause it works for him. His stock cooler works on mine so I don't think it's the motherboard or power supply's issue either. Unless I'm mistaken.

I'm just confused why my own stock cooler that I never had issues with before until after repasting suddenly caused me an unusual problem I've never encountered before.

To cut things short, I am currently unemployed for a year now, but my parents still think that I'm currently working. I have managed to lie to them for this long and honestly, it boggles my mind that I'm able to still do it, especially for a year.

How? Because the money (crypto) that my mom entrusted me to take care of and monitor is the one I'm using for every spendings in the household including for personal use. Akala nila sariling pera ko yung ginagamit. I even used that to treat them once in a while and just recently, I bought pizzas to celebrate me being a regular employee when again in reality, it's all a complete lie...Kapal ng mukha, right?

Just this morning, my mom asked me to show her the money (crypto) pero I just kept making all sorts excuses para hindi nya makita na nabawasan na. I have spent over 100K of that money and...just thinking about how much I stole from my mom and yung mga pagsisinungaling ko sakanila...I am utterly disgusted of myself.

I am not this kind of person before. I used to be an average guy just like everyone else who wants to make their parents and family proud. After I got diagnosed with PTSD, GAD, Adjustment Disorder and Deep psychological distress 2 years ago, my life took a 180 degree turn. I stopped undergoing treatment last year. I'm unable to find motivation to work and make an honest living, feeling restless and having thoughts of self harm. I don't know what to do anymore. I don't know how I'm able to still stomach doing all of these lying and there are even times na masaya pa ako sa ginagawa ko...I don't know how much more excuses/lies should I make. Should I just spill the beans? If so, what would my parents or family think of me? What will happen to me from here on out if I do that?

Just thinking about all of these again gives me so much anxiety and uneasiness that I'm having trouble breathing and thinking straight. Ang gulo gulo ffs. I don't wanna just resort to having no options and just decide to *opt out* cause I still believe that I have a redemption. That I can still bounce back... Pero hindi ko alam. Ang gulo talaga....