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So I was reminiscing the good old days, and remembered the MW3 times. Back then I used to play with a girl named MissStiffNastyz, looking back at it in hindsight I would’ve essentially called her my duo. Back then I was 12-13 and I wanna say she was older (to be honest I think a gap of 5-10 years) I’ve reached out on Xbox and her profile says offline and it’s been years since I messaged her account and no response. I genuinely can’t remember her name, and it’s probably a long shot, but I’m hoping she’s doing okay now, and was seeing if anyone here on Reddit might know something. Thanks!

Hi, I’m T, 27M
So recently I’ve been self loathing, and I’m not really sure why. Well maybe I do, but I can’t really wrap my head around it. Okay so, honestly I’ve never been in a relationship, and that messes with my mind a bit. I’m not rushing, looking, or being desperate… but in the back of my mind now, it’s now or never.
Besides the relationship aspect of my life, I think it’s life in general. I can confidently say that within the last 3-4 years I’ve been growing emotionally and mentally. Became very comfortable with my sexuality, came to terms that I can’t fix things I can’t control, tone of voice, reactions to situations, etc. And even with all that growth (and more to come,) I can’t seem to be happy.
I don’t think about ending myself or anything, but lately it’s been hard to see the light in my darkness. I’ve tired therapy before, and it wasn’t the most comfortable for me. And any prescription I’ve had, just worsens the mood.
Any advice on how to find a little solace or something like that?