u/HaileyGrace_

I have a Spotify playlist full of rock songs and wanting to add to it so please name some of your favorite rock songs and I’m gonna add it.

I’ve been crying all week my eyelids hurt so bad, I just want to talk to people but nobody wants to talk to me and I’m just so used to being excluded so I obviously don’t expect to be invited to anything or be included in anything. and I have really bad abandonment issues so I don’t let myself get to attached to people because I know they will just leave like everybody else does and not getting to close saves me from being hurt in the end. and I don’t want to bother anyone I actually apologized yesterday to two people if I was bothering them because I don’t want to annoy anyone. I just want to feel needed and what made me think I was bothering people was the comment I saw my older sister make on TikTok saying how she didn’t want to text me because I’ll never shut up. and my cousin told my Mom in front of me she didn’t want to talk to me because I was autistic and didn’t want to deal with it. and my Aunt doesn’t answer me anymore so I left her alone I just got to the point where I isolate myself in fear of bothering others. and don’t want anyone to feel like they have to talk to me. yesterday I tried my hardest trying to get someone to like me but it seems there’s nothing I can do and just need to face it.

How do I make friends? Because every time I try they always lose interest in talking to me and I don’t know if it’s my social issues or me rambling about my interests. I even try making conversations with whoever I’m talking to about things they’re interested in. most of my friends are online friends so it’s hard for me. I usually have a easier time connecting with others with Autism. just can’t seem to make a lasting friendship with anyone not on the spectrum and it makes me feel like there’s something wrong with me what am I doing wrong any advice will help and if anyone else went through this and overcame it how?