u/Happy_Ticket_9933

Ok NEVER mind. You're being weird again.

I'll just keep on rolling👸🏼🎶🌬

If you can loose me, I'll let ya!

No more tears. I'm finally healing BROOOOO.

DODGED THAT ONE.

Who the f*** leaves anything worth something, up to chance?

What kind of nimrod slow thinking person do you have to be to sit back and say oh maybe if it's meant to be it'll work out when you live the same life everyone else does and you know that s*** just doesn't magically bippity boppity boo f****** happen if you want it you have to be aggressive you have to go after it you have to fight for it you have to put one foot in front of the other what dumbass that actually gives a f*** about anything would sit back and say oh if it's meant to be it'll be are you f****** stupid or just slow I'm curious because never in the history of ever has s*** just sporadically magically f****** poof worked out for the better?? Maybe I've lived a jaded life but don't you have to fight for what you want don't you have to go after what you want don't you have to make it known who the f*** is there and says I don't want you I hate you while f****** other people and then saying oh if it's meant to be with me and her it'll be no b**** it was meant to be but you f***** up every goddamn chance you were ever f****** given you finally got to the point of where she thinks of you and gets sick to her stomach forever wasting her f****** time because you're disgusting human being and you keep sitting there bragging like you're doing something f****** dusty ass f****** parking lot whores who f****** cares that s*** you should never f****** brag about people pay for that s*** to keep it quiet not broadcasted across the goddamn internet you f****** dummy it makes you look like a f****** a God damn donkey it makes you look slow like you need a mother f****** helmet because what female would ever chase after a male who cannot for the love of God keep his dick out of a f****** disgusting STD field dumpster you might as well be wearing a goddamn hazmat suit nasty mother f*****

I'm angry as a mother at the end of the day I miss you like crazy because I thought that we had something special but then every day you come and you play with me you talk to me while you continue living your life without reaching out to me or offering a hand or an explanation or anything that would have helped me you were supposed to be my friend friends don't treat people like that I'm so disappointed in who you became I'm so tired of f****** thinking about you I'm so tired of this agonizing pain I'm tired of the f****** stress of feeling like you're watching me I'm sick of it offer me a real conversation or I swear to God this phone's going in the f****** River along with every f****** account attached to it so that you have no Eagle eye view of me you have gotten me to the point of where I almost hate you I'm not even going to lie a lot of the feelings I thought I felt for yours really diminishing by the minute if you ever hope to hold my hand you better step it the f****** the right way or else you're about to really f****** No Limits because I will not be a part of your life not even through Reddit don't f****** keep God damn playing with me I'm sick of it I'm not a vengeful person but don't tempt me

I didn't want to but there was honestly no way that I couldn't so I accepted it I accepted the fact that you didn't and you will never love me I accepted that you thought so low of me I accepted that I never mattered to you I accepted it even though I didn't want to you forced me to believe it so I accept it you never loved me you never felt the way I felt during those moments and I don't even have a word for the way that made me feel gutted I guess would be close I told you that I wanted to rip your chest open so that I could climb in and you could carry me beneath your ribs I really thought you were the one there was no doubt in my mind but now that's all I have our doubts I'm so broken and hurt I isolate myself just to avoid people asking questions I could call people I could go out but the truth is is I don't really want to hang out with anyone I don't care about meeting new people

I met the guy that I thought I was supposed to love for the rest of my life even though our relationship was never easy I thought you were it I settled it in my mind and as much as I accept that you do not love me I'm not even interested in getting to know anyone I don't care I don't care about much these days you were right when you called me a Shell of the person you used to love that's all I am now a shell I feel it I feel like a piece of me is missing and I can't think about it too long because it causes me not to breathe my god I've never loved anybody The Way I Loved You I'm so stupid for thinking you felt anything for me too because I don't win things I don't win prizes I don't When people's love I'm not trying to be dramatic I'm just being honest I feel like a piece of me has died and I'm angry I'm pissed because I know that version of me will never come back and I liked her I finally liked myself after years of not feeling enough I felt like I was 10 ft tall I had everything I wanted except you didn't love me how was the last person you've ever thought of I don't think you ever knew how much I actually cared about you every time I have flashbacks of those last few interactions I have to think to myself well he didn't know that I loved him and maybe you wouldn't have done the things you did I don't really have anything to say I just miss you so I wanted to reach out hate this I hate that I'm never going to know you again I hate that you'll never ride with me and we won't float I hate that you meant so much to me I wish I knew how to shut all of these feelings off I'm not even exaggerating I have cried over you everyday for a year for a whole year while you have not even thought about me I don't know why I got so attached to you I miss you I miss how you made me feel so important I miss how you listened I miss how you kept my mind busy I miss all of our stupid Adventures I'm so lonely without you I just can't shake it I'm trying but these feelings just keep coming and I'm just keep missing you and I don't know why because you are so horrible to me I've never been treated like that I feel so not enough not good enough not pretty enough not thin enough not fun enough losing you to someone else took part of my soul I think I just feel so dead on the inside but not dead enough to not cry I just I feel angry why did I have to meet you if I couldn't keep you and I try to find the lesson to be learned amongst it and I come up empty because I don't understand I know that you loved me and I love to you maybe you really never did love me Maybe I am just f****** crazy I hate that I love you I hate it I hate that you turn your back on me I don't know how you watch everything I do but I wish that you would stop it makes me feel so insecure like you're just sitting behind some screen with all your friends laughing at me it makes me want to just hide I miss you I'm so sorry if I ever treated you like I didn't think you were the most important thing I'm sorry that I procrastinated and showed up late I just wanted to look good for you I would get so excited my stomach would hurt and I just wanted to play it cool I was so stupid because you thought that I didn't care when the truth is is I care too much I think about you everyday all day everyday I'm depressed as f*** I don't know why I just wanted to matter to you so much I normally could give a f*** less what anyone thinks of me but I care so much what you think of me and when you told me that you didn't care at all I think a piece of me just died that is don't understand life right now it would be a lot easier if you were beside me but I know that that is never going to happen again I know we'll never be side by side I know that you'll never come here for me I know that all of that is just a memory I just want you to know I really did enjoy you I loved you so much I hate that you are my best friend because now who do I talk to I miss you I think I'm going to miss you forever and that sucks because it hurts it really hurts