Recently Diagnosed w/ BPD
I recently got diagnosed with BPD. It’s something I kind of knew was going on and it was putting strain on me and my partners relationship so I went to a psychiatrist and I recently got diagnosed with borderline personality disorder after a couple of visits. I feel a mix of emotions and kind of lost now. I found this out when I was checking my appointment notes and under the diagnosis section it listed BPD and my PTSD diagnosis was no longer there which leaves me confused too because they didn’t discuss this with me that my diagnosis was changing but that’s usually how the place I go to is — you learn on your own. I’ve dealt with the symptoms for so long it was destroying me and while I feel some relief seeing an answer written down I feel lost and a little hopeless because I don’t feel like I can tell my family or really too many people because of the stigma around BPD. I don’t really have the money for therapy and I feel like a shitty worthless partner to my boyfriend and I feel like he just doesn’t seem to love me and I can’t shake these feelings even if I tell myself it’s not true. I’m not sure how to cope with the news or what I should even do? Finding out something of that magnitude turns the next morning upside down for some reason.