u/HeadPreference6440

So im (M26) and my fiancé (F24) are in deep love. And our marriage is arranged for the upcoming year. Im always loyal to her and she's also loyal to me. We share everything. We have gone through so much but still we figure out everytime together. But last time in October 2025 we had a fight and left talking. But we knew deep down we will be together so we just gave each other required space. We used to talk and share live locations so just we know we both are okay.

But in November 2025 my college friend texted me (F25)and we had a little chat. After a little chat we'd a convo about our relationships. She told me she got marrried and her husband is out of the region for some of the business stuff. So after 3-4 days she invited me to a restaurant. So we had a little chat and shared a few things.

We met 2-3 times that month. The next month we didn't talk as I was busy with my routine. But then I had extreme arguments with my fiancé. I got anxiety and depression. I was so angry that I didn't want to get married to her. So I become so desperate to talk to someone and rant about my fiancé. I ended up texting my college friend (F25). She consoled me and started giving me advice for a better rs. Then the next morning she asked me to meet so I could get a little calmness for my mind. I agreed and we met. We talked normally like we were used to. I didn't see her as someone I like.

That day when we were about to leave the restaurant, she asked me if I could drop her home. I accepted. While going towards her home. She instantly started ranting about her husband that he doesn't give her time. She feels insecure. She wants to explore the world but her husband always ends up leaving her at home. As a man I told her that we've to deal with the outside stuff and all. I told her that she should explain and convince her husband about this.

I was driving and on our way back home we decided to go for a coffee. We parked the car and we were having normal chats but in the middle of chat I don't know what happened, what thing forced us to kiss. I knew she wanted and she knows I wanted to. We kissed like not a normal one. We kissed like we've been desperate for a long time. I don't know after that I felt so guilty. I didn't talk and left her home.

She texted me and asked me why I was so confused. She told me that this wasn't on purpose and I don't have to think about it. She won't be telling anyone. But still I felt my heart was being heavy.

I regretted it and moved on. But we used to talk on IG. I know something was lighting inside us. She started talking with me like she owns me and I really enjoyed it.

One day we talked about stuff that shouldn't be talked with someone other than your partner. We were getting so frank with each other and out of a joke I told her to get the fuckk off and she said "why dont you fuck me off". I was so shocked and replied with a LMAO.

She used to tell me to fuck and all that stuff out of joke. One day she started making fun of me that I ain't a man and I've a small Dick and I was so curious to know what she would react if I say you should try my D then.

I was fuking shocked that she said *come and show me". I dont know how our conversations turned into spice.

After a few days she told me that we should meet because We haven't met for a long time. I agreed and she told me to pick her up from her home in December 2025.

Here comes the day we met. I drove to her home to pick her up. It was about 7'o clock at night. While I was driving we had a joke about how we used to talk on text and if our partners see us this way they'll get crazy.

After driving for about 10-15 mins she told me that she has to pick some things up from her friend's house which is nearby. I drove and we reached there and parked our car at the sideways. She told me to wait for 5 mins and she'll be back. After 10 mins passed she came back and told me to wait there for a while because her friend said she is not at home and will be back soon. I asked her if her friend isn't home Why has she taken so much time and she said,

"Fuck me up then if ive wasted your time". I was like bruhh. And then she started ranting "ooh you've a small D you cannot fuck Huh?"

I said bro you've to calm down. She said "No No you have to fuck and show me you're a man".

And I said okay fine lets go backseat if you really want to get fucked.

She asked me really and I know we were just kidding so I said yes.

But idk why but she moved towards the backseat and told me to come and fuck. I was so confused and then she said "im telling you to come and fuck why are you taking so much time". I don't know but it felt like heaven when she owned me. I go to the backseat. I was looking at her and then we kissed. While kissing she took her hands inside my pants. I got so wet and she told me to bring that small D out of the pants. She was owning me and I was engaged in her so much. She sucked me and I fucked her like she owns me. That was the best sex I'd.

Once we both get finished I realised I didn't just fucked her I fucked my 5 years of love life. I was so ashamed and felt guilty. I dropped her and reached home. I told her that we have done the worst. I told her that this is all my mistake and I regret it. But she wasn't that much of a guilty as me. I told her that we should part ways. She was telling me again and again that this is our secret. But I told her to block me and we've already done the worst. That day I didn't block her because it doesn't feel right that I had intimacy with her and im blocking her right away. So I started ignoring her and kept telling her that this is soo wrong.

After a few weeks she started coming Infront of my house and used to told me if you don't meet or talk she'll tell everything to my wife. But I wasn't getting fooled so instead I told her that my car has an inside dash cam and I'll send her video to every single person on the internet. I don't know but she got scared. Some days she kept telling me that she loved me. But some days she used to threaten me. But somehow 2 months got passed and I avoided her.

Two months got passed doing regret and repentance. My fiancé texted me that are you all right? And I was like YES I'm but why would you text me and ask me.

She replied that her instinct is telling her that I've done something so wrong. But I told her I didn't do anything. From that day my fiancé and I are having the best day of our lives and we're so happy together. But she kept asking me sometimes what happened when she wasn't here. How my days passed and what I've done alone.

I didn't tell her anything. I'm scared to tell her and lose her. I'm so ashamed of myself and I have so much guilt inside of me. But I don't know how to get rid of this guilt.