u/Healthy_External_697

So many of my classmates are just coming to me and dumping their trauma on me. My mother says it's probably because I'm the quietest in class. But seriously, does being quiet mean I'm a trashcan for them to dump their trauma in? Well, it wasn't so bad, but then something worse happened.

It was my classmate (I'm gonna call her Lily). We were pretty close. She talked to me about her secrets while I talked about mine. I don't even remember what secrets I told her. But she's told me that her family has financial issues and her parents don't want to accept financial help from the school. Suspiciously, the previous year she had broken one of her legs, and this year just when her leg healed, her other leg was broken. Apparently, the teachers found that suspicious too, so they launched an investigation on her. She told me the teachers were just being delusional.

Not long after, she ran away from home. When the whole class got the news, everyone was worried. Sometime later, to the our relief, Lily was found. The teachers told us not to question Lily about it when she goes back to school next Monday. Fact: She only came back on Wednesday.

It was during art class. The teacher allowed us to do anything because it was the last day of school. I was just staring off into space, when Lily came to talk to me. She told me not to tell anyone, but the reason she only came back on Wednesday was because she had been admitted to a mental hospital for two days before they discharged her. She proceeded to complain about the conditions of the mental hospital. After her rant, she began another rant about how incompetent the school counselor was. Then she told me things that traumatised me.

She began to explain her very elaborate suicide plan.

When she first said it, I thought that, maybe, just perhaps, she was joking. But then she went on the tell me the exact date and time she was going to do it. She even listed out 4 ways she was planning to do it: Jumping, Overdose, Hanging or Cutting. That's when I realised this was a serious matter. She continued to tell me how she thought death was the only way to escape her problems, and that suicide didn't sound that bad. I didn't try to convince her otherwise, because I knew if I tried to convince her, she would stop talking and tell no one about it. When other classmates came to our table, she would deliberately switch the subject and revert back to suicide topics after they are gone.

Immediately, after school, I told my mother about what Lily told me. I couldn't risk Lily overhearing me tell the teacher in school, if she did, she might even commit earlier than the time she gave me. My mother was even more shocked than I was. She immediately called my teacher, her hands were even shaking. When my teacher heard, his voice was even trembling. He told my mother that he will tell all the school leaders to find Lily and help her.

The next day, Lily sent me messages on how the teachers and counselor told her if she didn't tell them her problems, she would have been labelled ad disrespectful. She even told me, "If I don't say, what are they gonna do? Kill myself for me?" I immediately screen shotted the message to send to my mother. My mother sent my screenshot to my teacher, and told me to not reply her, so I didn't.

This is the situation until now. I'm seriously stressed out. If Lily's attempt is stopped this time, she would most likely know that I told on her and not trust me anymore, basically guarenteeing that her next attempt will be successful. I've already told my teacher to keep me anonymous, but I don't think that's enough. This situation is seriously affecting my mental health right now. I can't sleep without having dark nightmares. I'm 14, is there something I can do to help myself? My mother won't be able to help much, she's never experienced something like this before. The school counselor is indeed not that good. Is there another way I can help myself?

So many of my classmates are just coming to me and dumping their trauma on me. My mother says it's probably because I'm the quietest in class. But seriously, does being quiet mean I'm a trashcan for them to dump their trauma in? Well, it wasn't so bad, but then something worse happened.

It was my classmate (I'm gonna call her Lily). We were pretty close. She talked to me about her secrets while I talked about mine. I don't even remember what secrets I told her. But she's told me that her family has financial issues and her parents don't want to accept financial help from the school. Suspiciously, the previous year she had broken one of her legs, and this year just when her leg healed, her other leg was broken. Apparently, the teachers found that suspicious too, so they launched an investigation on her. She told me the teachers were just being delusional.

Not long after, she ran away from home. When the whole class got the news, everyone was worried. Sometime later, to the our relief, Lily was found. The teachers told us not to question Lily about it when she goes back to school next Monday. Fact: She only came back on Wednesday.

It was during art class. The teacher allowed us to do anything because it was the last day of school. I was just staring off into space, when Lily came to talk to me. She told me not to tell anyone, but the reason she only came back on Wednesday was because she had been admitted to a mental hospital for two days before they discharged her. She proceeded to complain about the conditions of the mental hospital. After her rant, she began another rant about how incompetent the school counselor was. Then she told me things that traumatised me.

She began to explain her very elaborate suicide plan.

When she first said it, I thought that, maybe, just perhaps, she was joking. But then she went on the tell me the exact date and time she was going to do it. She even listed out 4 ways she was planning to do it: Jumping, Overdose, Hanging or Cutting. That's when I realised this was a serious matter. She continued to tell me how she thought death was the only way to escape her problems, and that suicide didn't sound that bad. I didn't try to convince her otherwise, because I knew if I tried to convince her, she would stop talking and tell no one about it. When other classmates came to our table, she would deliberately switch the subject and revert back to suicide topics after they are gone. She even told me not to tell anyone about it.

Immediately, after school, I told my mother about what Lily told me. I couldn't risk Lily overhearing me tell the teacher in school, if she did, she might even commit earlier than the time she gave me. My mother was even more shocked than I was. She immediately called my teacher, her hands were even shaking. When my teacher heard, his voice was even trembling. He told my mother that he will tell all the school leaders to find Lily and help her.

The next day, Lily sent me messages on how the teachers and counselor told her if she didn't tell them her problems, she would have been labelled ad disrespectful. She even told me, "If I don't say, what are they gonna do? Kill myself for me?" I immediately screen shotted the message to send to my mother. My mother sent my screenshot to my teacher, and told me to not reply her, so I didn't.

This is the situation until now. I'm seriously stressed out. If Lily's attempt is stopped this time, she would most likely know that I told on her and not trust me anymore, basically guarenteeing that her next attempt will be successful. I've already told my teacher to keep me anonymous, but I don't think that's enough. This situation is seriously affecting my mental health right now. I can't sleep without having dark nightmares. I'm 14, is there something I can do to help myself? My mother won't be able to help much, she's never experienced something like this before. The school counselor is indeed not that good. Is there another way I can help myself?