Going bqck to my toxic mothers house or not
So i 22 male am starting the trades soon I will have to leave my appartement with my roommate we will both be moving out different ways but the thing is im in debt for my student loan a 5k in credit card loan plus I have. A car a friend gave em for 3k and he is ok for me to oay him later but still its a debt now I have two choice either I go to an apartment that cost me 900 per month's 2 1/2 or I go back to my mom's house
She is toxic she will not listen to what I have to say she is someone that is hard to resonate with one thing come in the heart then out the other she berates me sinc ei was a child till this day she does she tries to hold her tongue from time to time but she can't hold it long she as a bad temperament she also would need heavy psychological follows cause my psychologue told me she add big issues with the way I was describing her to him
I will graduate in 6 months in my trade amd I will work at night during weeks to pay the bills ofc it would be easier to come back to my mom's house pay all thats tuff but really is it really worth it or will I lose my mind again cause befor when I was at my lowest my face became puffy with the stress my body was shutting down sleep had no hour to me I was in a limbo state and she woukd insult me to the max saying how she regretted having me and that I did nothing in the house or every time I would say that I wanted to study in something she woukd laught at me and tell me I ain't shit and I would not make it out
I try my best to forgive her but in the end for my finance is it something I can sacrifice the peace of my mental health or my pocket I know its a stupid thing to think about but I have dreams and I wish to make it out but I also know it takes time too but truly I am in mixed feelings I will soon go to my mom's hous to talk to her about it to see how she is and how will she treat me