u/HeavyDrinker123

I'm 19, I just want this pain to stop, why can't I be happy for once like other people my age, I have no desires left anymore but I still do things that I'm supposed to I study, I go to the gym, I hang out with my friends, I treat everyone with kindness but there's something broken inside, I can never be happy. Why isn't it enough, what is missing, the little bit sanity left in my mind is what's holding me from taking a wrong step but idk for how long will it last, At first I thought fixing my lifestyle will help me very much but it didn't, nothing changed. What am I supposed to do?