u/Hedgeclipperz

When I wake up the first thing that has been popping into my head recently is “what is my body going to do today”. (Basically which of my symptoms will be there, how will I feel, will today be a good or hard day).

I know LOGICALLY that’s not helpful and keeps me in the anxiety loop but I am having a hard time NOT thinking that first thing in the morning.

(Yes I have a therapist but thought I’d ask here, too- to see if y’all have any suggestions or recommendations. I’m slowly making my way through the Steady Coach’s free course. I’ve had VM and PPPD since 2023 so this isn’t new to me, but my symptoms have been changing and have become less predictable over the last few months so it’s been harder for me to manage emotionally).

Does anyone else have these types of feelings/thoughts?

I don’t know if I can keep this onboarding up much longer 😔

Day 1-4: headache, nausea, fatigue, brain fog

Day 5-6: fatigue

Day 6-8: withdrawal from old anxiety med (awful symptoms)

Day 9-13: dizzy, fatigue

Day 14-16: insomnia, dizzy, smaller appetite than normal

Day 17 (today): nausea. Lightheaded. Body temperature being weird (99.4 to 98.6 to 98.1). No appetite. Generally not feeling well, having to rest. (Tested negative for flu/covid)

I’m supposed to be going on vacation today and can’t bring myself to get out of bed. My energy is so low, I can’t eat anything, and I’m nauseas.

Is this worth it? I don’t know how much more I can take. 😔