my gf broke up with me over text. what do i do? her text is below:
I don't even know how i fucking feel. I'm not getting emotional but im getting passive aggressive randomly.
context :
gf of 9 months. we live in adjacent cities 3 hours away. she was head over heels for me for the past 9 months. just fucked her brains out 2 weeks ago and made her cum like 3 times.
but something changed 2 days ago. yesterday she texted me about feeling anxious about our future. i called her and she cried a little bit. somehow i felt like i couldnt give her satisfactory reassurance. she talked about how she will be devastated in the future more if she gets more emotionally attached when we breakup. she was saying things about how she feels that she is more invested in me than i am in her.
her paragraph :
"again its very random but it is what it is.. I know you’ve treated me so well all this time and that you’ve genuinely liked me and honestly it breaks my heart to even type this but I feel like I have to.
For months, I’ve been constantly thinking about us and whether I should let myself seriously love you or not. And now that I’m at a point where my fear of love is taking over, I just don’t think I can do this anymore. I know you told me you’d stay, but maybe the problem is me. I know the way I want to live my life might never allow me to be yours forever, and I don’t want to keep you waiting for something I’m not sure I can give you.
I’m sorry for doing this, especially knowing you might never forgive me, and honestly, I don’t know if my own heart will forgive me either. But I feel like I need to do this to protect my peace and save myself from getting hurt even more in the future.
I came here for you, and somewhere along the way, I realised that I just can’t love you.. That doesn’t mean you didn’t matter to me. You’ll always have a place in my heart, and everything you’ve done for me is something I could never forget.
I’m truly sorry. I just don’t have the courage to face you after choosing to let my love for you go. Maybe someday, if you can forgive me, we’ll meet again. Until then, I hope you know that leaving was never because you weren’t enough. It was because I couldn’t fight my own fears anymore."
L: 6.5 normal or 7 BPEL
G: unknown
what the fuck do i reply?